I am feeling a bit overwhelmed these days. There will come a time when I will focus on me and get this rolling again. However, right now is just not the time. While, I will continue to try and make the best choices possible, I just can't give it my all at this point. Im an all or nothing kind of girl-- I always have been I'm either full fledge or farthest from it. I'm working on changing that and trying to discover a happy-medium. My body won't be the same especially after a C-Section. I expeced to go right back down to size after having Carson, it just did not happen. I'm not a thin person by nature, I have to work on it, and I will. I need to get settled. Thanks to everyone for the caring supportive words, thoughts and ideas. It's really great to know how many of you care so much. WOW! I'll get through it with all of your help!

Gretchen!! Sweetie! I don't think that I have to tell you that I hear ya! I ask myself all the time - how can this sweet tiny little boy be so desrubtive in my life? The fact that you are having such a hard time focusing on yourself right now tells me how selfless you are and that Carson is lucky to have you as his Mom. Don't feel like you failed. You are a great mom and right now that's all that matters. Things will change when you are ready. Love yourself and love your family. Right now - that's enough

Hugs to you

Please.. when you have the time - just keep chatting here - we love and miss you!

Dana--- I so needed your comment. Thank you I do feel like a good Mom and when I'm with Carson, that's all that does matter. I know in time, everything will fall into place. I'm tired and I don't think I could take on any other challenges right now!