Yes I think that way constantly it really kills me. just wishing you never were fat and thinking you are never going to look good now, or how you want to, no matter what. That way of thinking is also what got me into this mess though now when I look back, I remember feeling that same way when I wasn't even that overweight, and if I would of just lost weight anyways it would of never got this bad. So even though it really does kill me and I think that all the time I know I have to lose this weight because if I don't it will just get worse and worse and I will have even more to feel bad about. It's normal to feel bad about it and I'm sure everyone does no matter what size they are just don't let it stop you because it will get worse and you will wish you had started earlier all you have is now.

haha all my best friends are "skinnies" and they encourage me a lot through this weight loss and I think that seeing the cute things they buy when we go to the mall, that I've never in my life been able to fit into... but know that someday I'll be able to fit into these clothes -- probably a few sizes bigger, Is really encouraging! Think of it in terms of not everyone looks good in a size 2. Some women just look best in a size 12 As long as you're healthy and happy!

Oh I hear ya hunny! I had this same meltdown when I went to buy my wedding dress and realized no matter how hard I tried I would never be a size 4 and wouldn't look like how I dreamed in a dress. But no matter I was still a beautiful bride. I now an realizing that it isn't so much how I look as how good I am going to feel. Hang in there! It is going to be wonderful even if it isn't what you first thought it would be.

Paradise,

Don't be so sure you can never be a size 2 or 4. I didn't think I could be either. I always chalked it up to being "big-boned," just a "big girl" and blah, blah, blah.

You can do what you want. You can achieve what you want. You can be what you want.

I think that it is natural if you are not happy with the way you look (like I am), to be envious of another person that you see as ideal or cute or lucky or any other favorable description that fits. My 19 year old daughter, who is a size 2, is not satisfied with herself either...she nitpicks her body and is always comparing herself to someone else. I honestly can say that I do not know any woman who is completely satisfied with the way they look.
Losing weight is a difficult task and time and again I believe that I can't do it and I won't ever get there...but on my good days I draw my inspiration from my health and make getting healthy my goal. When I do this...the jean size doesn't matter as much as the thought of being free from obesity related illnesses that are sure to come in my near future.

Also...thanks for the inspiration that is posted here!!!