It is so "comforting" (I'm not sure that is the right word) to see all my sins written in others words. I'm so guilty of all of these. One of my lowest moments was my dh coming home finding me in the middle of a binge crying 'cause I didn't want to do it but just felt so compelled to. Not a good day.

Today I threw out a bag of jelly candies after I only had a couple because I realized I really didn't like them. I NEVER would have done that before.

Shelby - I'm so not saying that I don't let these feelings impact me. It's just that I have five children and all of the financial issues that accompany them, so I've always known that if I let my weight completely define me, I would not be able to support them. So, I look to Oprah (fat Oprah, that is) and others for inspiration on how to succeed despite weight issues and remember that I need to give people a chance to accept me and my talents without deciding for them that I am not worth that acceptance.

A year at the YMCA five times a week for hard work-outs? What a tremendous accomplishment! If you can do that, working out the food issues will not be far behind.