Hey ladies,

Gayle...you and your mom are still in my prayers...I am glad that she made it through some of the test already and I hope she does well tomorrow. Keep us posted.

Daphne...It was good to hear from you and I am with you, I am not sticking to my diet at all. What else is happening in your neck of the woods?

Dana...Welcome back! I got your card and felt guilty because I haven't had time to send you all cards from LA. Did you get your phone line working...post as soon as you can.
Sorry to be so short, but it is midnight and I should of been in bed. I have been feeling guilty for not getting online and posting. I am still dragging and having some pain in my right side. I finally called the doctor and I go in tomorrow for a check up. I am really sorry for not being here, but I feel tired all the time and not focused and I don't have very much spark right now. Plus, I am so far behind at work...I was trying to impress them for the marketing job, but I heard they are goin with some one else, I made a major booboo on an email blast which left a sour taste in their mouths, I guess. BJ has been having pain in her lower right side and I had to force her to go to the doctor's last Friday night. (I drove her and then kept the kids) They don't know what is wrong with her, but think she either has a urinary or kidney infection. She is on antibiotics, but still in pain. She even went back to her OB-Gyn and they couldn't find anything. Yesterday, Darcie cut her finger open when she fell on a rock at camp and had to have 3 stitches. We didn't make it home until 9 last night.

It seem like every night I am up and not resting well. I am really tired and stressed out. I don't know if I am going to get a new car or not because I still owe so much on the van, it is probably not worth what I owe. So I don't think a dealer would be able to use it as a trade in. I am telling ya all, I am having a hard time making my mind up and sometimes, I don't feel like I have a "mind" to make-up. The doctor wanted me to get blood work done at the beginning of the month and now it is the 21st...I feel like I am running as fast as I can and going no where fast.

Well, I am rambing..I am really tired.
I think about you all,
Take care,
DRINK WATER
Deborah

Deb any news on BJ?

Gayle, about mom?

Hi ann and daphne.

Nothing new to report today just checking to see if anyone had been back in here. I have to take brett to dr. tomorrow and to register for middle school. I pray his year starts off smooth for him. It's a big enough change going to that large school when you don't have diabetes to worry about.

We're doing ok. They couldn't get a a sample that showed cancer in the bronchoscopy, but the PET scan was "hot" which means there is cancer there. The next test is a needle biopsy fro the outside of her left lung, but they want to wait 4 to 6 weeks and take another CAT scan first. He says that's not detremental and if it does grow, it'll make it easier for the radiologist to get a sample. So, we're still on hold.

She feels better now that she knows the cancer is not all through her. I'm crashing. Yesterday, I had a depression and am not doing much better yet today.

I go to the chiropractor today maybe a little less pain will help. It also didn't help that my brother finally called last Wed (21st) and said he'd left 3 messages on my machine (none of which showed up...no one else has had problems...) to tell me that his family was at Lake Erie for the week. Well, since they were leaving on Sat and we had appointments, we didn't get to go to see them and they didn't make the 2 1/2 hour trip down to see us. It's like if we were to go to Dallas and not make the effort to go to visit them. That totally sucks! Mom has forbade me to ask him again to come to visit. What's the matter with them?

Then, he is in Boston working at the Democratic Convention (only working...he's a total republican...maybe that's his problem...) and he sent pictures of some of the kids at Lake Erie and it looks like Jenn (the oldest) was there with her two little girls (who we haven't even seen yet, they're 3 and 5 months) so we missed maybe the only time we'll be able to see them.

I've gotta go and cry.

Hello EVERYONE!!!

Gayle...I am so sorry that your Mom has cancer. I am here for you. I am so sorry that your Bro is being such a "MAN". I can't believe he didn't come see his mother. I feel so bad for you...I want to give you a great big hug. I am praying for you both. You can't let yourself get to down. Everything will work out...You have to believe that! If you ever want to talk...you can call me or email me your ph.# and I will call you...(I get free nights and weekends). I want to be here for you...you don't have to feel like your alone...just pick up the phone..I am here for ya!!

Dana...When does the kids start school? I know you had mentioned that Brett has type 2 diabetis..forgive me for my ignorance...but what does that mean...what is he going to have to do to keep it under control? How are the twins? What grade are they going into? Middle school was hard for Darcie...I really hope that Brett doesn't have such a hard time adjusting...Kids change in middle school and friendships sometimes do last once they hit pre-teen...or at least that is what happen to Darcie. I wish you all the luck. I wanted to thank you for your post-card...It cracked me up!
I have it hanging right by my desk and everytime I see it I smile and think of you. You are so together...I have everyone's postcards from Universal and Knotts in my purse and I just haven't had the time to send them to all of you! I feel like a complete SHE...lol I wish I could be ontop of things like you Dana.

ANN and DAPHNE...Hello...POST SOON

BJ is fine...it took a while for the meds to start working...the doctors never did figure out what was wrong with her (either a kidney or urinary track infection) They don't know. But finally, the pain started to subside and she is doing better. Monday I take Darcie to get her stitches out.

I am sorry that i haven't been posting, but work has been a B*tch and this week. They gave the marketing position to a man, but I don't know when he will start. So I am going to have to get my resume together and start looking for another job. (I am torn...because if I leave here...I would have to pay for camp for the kids and it was over $4,000 this summer that I saved...but I don't like being used and not being recognize for my efforts and my work)
As for home, I am still waiting to see if they will give me a walk-through. I have been working on the apartment after work to get it ready for the inspection. (It still is not together). I am hoping to have a walk through in the next couple of weeks. There is a 3-bedroom available right now, but they are waiting for the Site manager to get back from her honeymoon to do the walk through and she will be back on the 4th.

As for me getting a new vehicle...it is not going to happen. My van is trashed...I didn't realize how damaged it was until I started cleaning it up to trade it in. Then I started to realize all the defects it has. For one thing, I have keys broken off in both of my doors...That is right ladies...my doors have keys stuck inside them and I can open the door with any key...(I wont even go into how they both got keys broken in them ) Then there is the ripped leather seats, and the missing piece under the stearing wheel. There is more...but I won't bore you with all the defects my van has...
it is just that I got so use to them..I wasn't thinking that it wasn't normal to be able to unlock my van with any key on my ring...lol So the dream of a new car is out!!

Well this was suppose to be a quick post...lol
LOVE TO ALL!!
Deborah

Deb I love that van! I am always losing my keys so a van that opens with any key is a God Send to me! I am lost as to why Darcie had stitches? I will have to scroll back now. OK she cut her finger.I am glad that BJ is doing better at least. I really am sorry about that dang van not being up to par my dear sweet sister. What is up with your side and what did the Dr. say? I am so sorry about the job going to a MAN!
Gayle I am so sorry bout Mama. Give her my love and a hug and a kiss from me. I am here if and when you want to talk. I have long distance on the home phone so I can call you anytime now that you are free. How is your back doing? How hot has the weather been lately? Is that air conditioner helping at all?
Dana how are the brats....kids...hubby? How many days now until school starts? They have a 5 weeks here still before school starts. I can not wait for it to start. I am such a bad mama happy to see the kids off to school and my time make me free. Is that pool getting a lot of useage?
Ann I miss you darling post more for us! What have you been doing lately? Have you had fun with the sunshine? How is the weather there anyhow? When does school start for you all?
I am stuck here with my out laws. They brought Robert back yesterday. My van was in the shop for the timing belt. It was supposed to be done by 5. My van is still sitting in the shop. They were to do all the belts and it got into more than they expected it to. So I sit here trapped in my house!
Daphne

Good Evening everyone!
Daphne...It was good to see ya posting! How is your summer going? How are your allergies? Is Robert back from your inlaws? How is he behaving? How is everything else? Is Jason still working out of town?
Daphne....I know what you mean about losing keys...it never bothered me that the van had keys broken in the door, because if I lost my keys I could still drive and get into it. (A penny works to open the doors too...lol) and I have a spare ignition key in the change compartment. So I never had to call into work that I couldn't find my keys and would be late...lol. and because of that, I have been in no hurry to fix it, or even thought that it might be trashy, until trying to get a new car. Then I realized most people don't open their car doors with a penny or edge of their house keys...lol As for my side hurting....the doctor doesn't know what is wrong with me...(what is new...lol)
GAYLE, DANA, ANN ...Post soon We Miss ya!

Well Ladies...since my surgery I have been slacking off on the old dieting...don't get me wrong I am still eating my yogurt and fruit for breakfast (most Mornings) and even eating my 4oz of meat and 6 oz of veggies for lunch...but the evening and weekends go straight to H*ll or my Hips which ever...My neighbor Kim has been a really bad influence on me, diet wise. (She is a great person, who is helping me get this place in order and the kids on a schedule of chores...but she drinks a 12pak of coke a day and love Krispy Kremes) So I have been slipping and eating soda, doughnuts, cake and ice cream We had a b-day party up in Sacramento today and so this weekend I have cosumed all of the above foods in mass quanities (as the coneheads would say)
So tomorrow being Monday...I am getting back on the wagon. I have already packed my yogurt and fruit for breakfast and my meat and veggie for lunch and tomorrow night I will have salmon or cod, veggies and a salad. I have to get back on the weight loss horse. I dont' know how much I weigh, but friday I was up to 257.

Well it is 11:30 and I have work tomorrow...
DRINK WATER
Deborah

Gayle I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you the other day but so thankful that daphne and deb were here. They way you take care of your mom and do everything without help is just how i feel. I am having some struggles getting the kids back into school and of course I'm all alone in it. The lady who helped me get brett into school last year with his diabetes care plan is on medical leave of absence until september so I don't have her help, the nurse doesn't know the "procedure" for starting school since she came in the middle of last year and the school itself wasn't of much help. The Elem. school shreds up all of the forms from 5th grade and you have to start all over in middle school so they didn't even know they had a new 6th grader with diabetes. Sorry for the ramble but it ticks me off since it is all up to me. I think you do need to return to work to obtain some sanity Gayle. It helps to get your mind free for a while and breathe in different air! Your mom does need you to stay strong and like everyone else said, I'm here for you as well.

Deb I'm glad everyone's health is improving. I have that dreaded gyn. app't on august 16th which is getting here fast. I also have to go have my lipid profile (blood work) done before then that I have been putting off for nearly 2 years now. You're not being ignorant about diabetes at all. Type 1 is where the pancreas isn't functioning at all or only slightly. It will eventually stop. I think brett's is totally non-functioning at this point. You are "insulin dependent" on type 1. Type 2 is "insulin resistant". It's either where your pancreas isn't producing "enough" insulin quick enough or it's where your body doesn't know how to use the insulin it gets from the pancreas or shots. Brett has both insulin resistance and insulin dependence. He's on pills to help his body use the insulin he injects. Is that about clear as mud?? My kids return to school on tuesday the 10th. Logan will be in 4th and Laken in 3rd. As for your weight, we're nearly the same. I was at 244.5 this morning but we ate out every meal while in cherokee over the weekend.

Daphne you're not a bad mom at all. We all feel the same way. I'm not looking foward to getting up early, helping with homework, fixing lunches, waiting in long lines at both schools and having to pickup and drop off at 2 schools this year. Yes Laken is getting a new aide. The rumor my mom was told is true. The new aid (kristie) was an assistant kindergarten teacher when brett and logan were in K-5. She's never worked with laken before and I"m not sure Laken even remembers or knows her. The old aide (suzanne) will actually still be in the classroom as she moved up to assistant teacher in laken's class so she still will be able to interact with her.

Well Logan is suppose to spend the night with my grandma tonight and i have to take him over there after cooking supper. Not enough time in the day but then again, too much time in the day when the kids are home all the time. I have to keep my nephew tomorrow as well. Take care and I hope to post more often when this school stuff gets settled.

Hi Ladies,
So much is going on here that I really don't know where to start. My mother-in-law was hospitalized on July 9, with pneumonia. We brought her home Sunday. She is 92 years old and the Dr. has told us that she can't stay by herself any more, so we are taking days about staying with her. Her daughter went back to the DR. and her cancer is back. The tumors are in her brain and in herlungs and she has leisions on her liver now. This is the only daughter myMIL has living, so it is up to her DIL's to take care of her. There are 3 DIL's and 1 of her grandaughter's helping us. If it is my day, I will stay with her during the day and when my husband gets home, I cook there and the kids and I stay til around 9pm and my husband stays the night. She gets up so much in the night that Tim didn't get much sleep Monday night when he stayed. He said he wooke up and went to look in on her and she had fallin going to the bathroom and was trying to pull herself up on the bed and she had peed all over herself. She is so weak and she still wants to do everything for herself. She isn't drinking very much liquids and I am afraid she is going to end up back in the hospital.
I had to take Amanda for an ultrasound on her breast. She has a lump in it. I am still trying to put things from the garden up. I have 3 walmart bags full of okra sitting in the kitchen waiting for me to put them up. I wanted to check and see how Gayles mother was doing and how Gayle is doing. How is everyone else doing.
I have been so upset, especially Monday. My sister-in-law weighted 330lbs and she started losing weight and I ask her what she was doing and she told me she was taking zantrex 3 and at that time she had lost 50lbs and she developed lumps in her breast and the Dr. told her it was from the caffine in the zantrex 3 and she had to stop taking them and then I talked to he some weeks later and she told me she was still losing and she was losing a lb a day and she wasn't taking anything. Monday she came to my MIL's so I could show her about mu MIL's meds and breathing treatments. You can tell she has lost and she told me she has lost 100lbs and she is down to 250lbs. I came home and I just wanted to cry cause I have been trying so hard to lose and I have given up all my sweets and that was a bigstep for me to do that and stick with it. I haven't had anything sweet in 3 wks. My sister-in-laws father pasted away about 4 wks ago and he weighted about 500lbs and they had to order an xtra large casket for him and they couldn't get him through the church door so they had to take him to the community center. When we went down there and I looked at him, it hit me like a brick wall. If I don't lose this weight , this is going to be me and this is what my family is going to have to go through and I don't want that. so I came home and started on my diet an everytime I even think about eating something sweet or something I knopw isn't good for me , the image oof the casket and the man in it come into my mind and I don't eat all that stuff any more , but I am not losing either. I guess it is because of my back and that I can't move alot or exercise. My Dr. has refered me to a neurosurgen on Aug. 20. My MRI showed that at L 2&3 the disk is bulging and pressing on the nerves on both sides and L3&4 is herinated and pressing on the nerves on both sides at L5,S1 it is dislocated. I don't want to have surgery on my back. My Dr. still tells me that if I lose weight it will take the pressure off my back because my stomach and abdmon fat is what is pulling on my back. The last time I went to the Dr. (last month) I had gained up to 299 and I just wanted to cry. Well I have to go. I am still baby sitting and I have to go fix him some lunch. I will try to get back on her tonight and find out what is going on with all of you.
Gayle you and your mom are in my prayers. Love you all cause I know all of you are always here for me and you all have helped me through so many things and you don't know how much that means to me. I may not post alot anymore but I will always be here for you all.
Love and hugs
Ann

Status quo here. Waiting for the 30th. Mom has the CAT then. I ran out of pain meds and now know why I'm taking them...even if I'm only taking one every morning. I'm in a world of hurt. Can't stay here long.

Sorry to hear everyone is having troubles. You're all in my prayers. Sorry I can't post more. Gotta get off my back...NOW!

Love,

I posted and lost it. I can't sit up much longer, so suffice it to say...I'm out of pain meds and am paying for it. Didn't know they did that much. Mom has CAT on Aug. 30. Ann, you, DH, MIL are in my prayers. You too, Deborah. Sorry about all the crap at work. Are you having any luck finding something else? What's up, Dana and Daphne?

Love,

Hello Everyone!
I wish I could hug you ALL!!!

You are all In my prayers!!

Gayle...I hope you are feeling better today! Keep us posted on yourself and Mom!
How is your JOB? How is the newsletter?

Dana...Are you okay over there in NC with Charley? Please post and let us know!
Have the kids started school? How is it going for Brett? I am worried about you ladie...post soon!

Ann...I am so sorry to hear about your MIL and everything that is going on over there. She and you are in my prayers. I am really proud of you for getting back on the wagon. I am sorry though that you need such a shocker to get you going again. I know though how you feel...I have decide I want to live to be 90 and the only way I am going to do it...is if I loose some of this "cuteness". Please keep us posted on everything...you are in my thoughts and prayers. Also, have you read dr.phil? He has a lot of good advise and he is all about being "real" about your weight. I know you can loose weight, Lady...I have faith in you!!

Daphne...Tony is in my prayers...I am so sorry that you have to go through that. I hope everything is okay. Are you thinking about going to see him? How are the other two kids? Are they in school?

I am so sorry ladies that I had to be short with my address to you. As you know my work is in jepordy. The good news is that I am union and they just can't come out and fire me. I am trying to do everything they want of me...but I am under so much pressure to be ontime and everything that I am making more mistakes. I just feel like they are waiting for me to screw-up. My boss was at my portable at 9am both thursday and friday...I felt like she was just waiting for me to be a minute late. It is really stressful!!

There is so much going on here and I want to share it all with you! First good news, my manager just called and I was approved for the 3 bedroom. I will be moving in a month...(the lady just moved out and they have to change the carpets and paint so that is going to take a couple of weeks. I am so excited...I want to dance and scream. I am really missing BJ right now...her and her DH are in Cancun...they left Sunday. I am so happy that she got to get away and is getting to spend sometime on the beach...I wish I was there. (I have never really been out of the USA).

Anyway...I think my luck is finally changing...It was bad last week between my job being jerks and my internet was turned off! Yes, that is right...I went to get online Tuesday evening to post a resume and look for a new job and I couldn't get connected. I was on the phone with the tech, till way after 11pm and couldn't fix the problem. Then I got my phone bill online here at work, and it was $261 I thought that the kids had ran it up, but when I checked the charges there was a $200 "early" disconnect fee for my internet. I spent almost an hour on the phone with them to get the charges removed and to have them reinstate the internet...but they couldn't because their is some block on it for a couple of days after it gets shut off. And so I have to call tomorrow and have them re-instate me...but it is still going to take 10 business days to have it up and running!!! I am definately not happy!
Other than that, I started on my regime of antibiotics for the infection in my stomach. I have to take 4 pills 4x's a day and 1 pill 2x's a day for 14 days to get rid of the H-plylori in my gut. I am totally not happy I have gained 5 lbs...because I can't have dairy with this med...so no yogurt for breakfast!

Well, I shouldn't even be on here...because I am work...but I miss you all and want to catch up with you.
Take care of yourselves.
DRINK WATER
Deborah

Hi

Where is everyone. When I start posting everyone else stops. How is everyone. When does school start. It started here the 4. The weather is fall like weather. I think we are going to have an early fall this year. The temps. during the day are like in the 70's and at night in the 50's . Usually this time of the year here the temps are like in the high 90's and low 80's at night.

Gayle you and your mom are in my prayers as are all of you. Well got to go check back later.

love & huigs
Ann

Ann...We must of been posting at the same time. Did you get your canning done? How do you can okra??? I have only had it at my MIL house in gumbo and I didn't really like it (to slimy) but I know that a lot of people have it fried...of course what isn't good fried...lol. How is your MIL today? How is your dieting?

I am really frustrated with the "no dairy" restrictions on my medicine. I didn't even realize how many things I eat with Dairy in them. The problem is that I am substituting "high carbs" (like breads and muffins) for my dairy. So today. I have really been trying to watch what I eat and cut back on "all" food. So that I don't continue to gain.

well...I snuck on again from work...so I had better get off of here.
Take care everyone!!!
Love ya all!!!
Deborah