That's the one Sarah... some sound so funny on there, but they're so true... and I think most people feel that way and it was nice to have someone honest enough to have it written down.
I'm sorry, I didn't know about your daughter, that must have been so hard
I want to be happy in a cool black bikini and to get my belly button pierced next summer ! Ten more pounds to go...so near and yet so far.... go go go, clippy, go!
i can give u some numbers if u like (see below.. think there are prob others)... if its a way of talking to ppl.. in "real life" but a step before face to face talking..... (if thats where you want to be... if your ok with how things are then thats no ones place to judge etc...)
... i worked in kids ITU & have had lots of experiance of looking after children and thier families... & even if she was "grown up" she is still ur baby...
i think u have to take things are you feel ready... not just because you think you should be doing X,Y & Z etc... your doing great - I find you an inspiration !....
Thanks, Lou - I had some counselling which didn't really do anything for me at all - just made me more miserable - I don't think she was a very good counseller. But in the last few weeks and months things seem to be getting a bit better.
yup.. i think i would be the same... im not a great one to talk about how i feel etc.... only with time it gets easier to deal with although still painfull i can imagine.
- being able to go clubbing with my friends and turning heads like they do
- wearing a bikini and going to the beach in summer
- being able to swim, instead of pretending I don't like it just because I'm too self-conscious in swimmers
- being able to beam and play model when my friends whip the camera out instead of worrying about how bad I might look
- having people respect me for being healthier and losing weight
- having more energy to do more at the gym without being red and breathless
- learning to SALSA... really looking forward to that...
- feeling emotionally strong because I'll have gone from making absolutely terrible food choices to healthy ones
- looking forward to living longer and having a better quality of life!
- feeling more confident in relationships
{{{{Sarah}}}} it all takes time, eh? I lost my mum when I was 10, and I'm 45 now but not a day (or half day) goes by I don't think of her, and love her and miss her. It gets easier, but it takes a lifetime sometimes to live with this great 'hole' in your life. This time of year isn't very helpful, either, eh? I just think how proud she'd be of me turning my life round - sometimes this healthy journey is therapy in itself, eh? Or so I found. In the summer, my dad took a turn for the worse and was hours from death (they managed to get him back) and that sent me into a tailspin, dietwise. Now I look back, I realise I'd been working so hard and was so focused - right up til July. When he fell ill. But at the time, I didn't even put two and two together. Just thought I'd lost my focus. Is a lifelong thing, I guess, the weight loss and the coping with grief.
ok, this is gona be a long one,
I want to lose weight
-To make a huge change to how i feel about my self and improve my self esteem
- To go shopping with my friends and believe it whn they tell me i look nice
- To feel like i can do wotever i wanna do without putting barriers on myself that and thinking that fat girl like me would look ridicolous doing this
- To have the confidence to approach and speak to everyone
- To not think that every boy who looks at me is gaping because iam fat
- To not feel pressured into buying/ accpting thing as this is the best i can do
- To be able to go out whenever i feel like wearing something simple rather than have to plan and think what i have to wear before hand!
-To feel like an average looking person atleast
- To feel like i am some one who tell my future patients that obesity is a big health risk, they should lose weight etc without fgeeling like a complete hipocrite.
my goal was shallow...i just wanted to look and feek sexy!
but scince i have lost 6 stone my heath has improved so much and it has shown me how important is it to get the rest of the weight of for my health..when i get to my goal i want to look like a different person, i want to turn heads in the street! (who dosnt lol)
i just want to feel better about myself!
I want to:
-Look good
-Be able to shop in any store
-Buy clothes I like, not just ones that fit
-Be able to wear the nice clothes that hang in my wardrobe but are too small
-Be able to ride my horse, too heavy just now
-Feel good and confident
-Be the size that my brain thinks I am and stop hitting things with my big bum!
* look in the mirror and not think I need to loose more from here, here and here
* be happy with myself and the way I look, just like the way my fiance is so happy with me now
Quite simple for me really. I think I have a pretty much ideal life in every other way. I have a successful career, a very loving family, a gorgeous fiance and a car I love. This would be the icing on the cake!
PhatPhoenix , 12-23-2006 12:44 PM
vampalicious , 12-27-2006 12:05 PM
