Harpo I am the same way lately..Comfortable with where I am so not watching it. BUT wanting to get that last little bit gone here too...
OK so yesterday was my new start and I did well, good breakfast, good snack, good lunch, Get my shoes on, get on treadmill, start slowly, phone rings, Its the bank, I am excited thinking "finally a closing date", Banker says "main bank is fighting the appraisal, they think it was fixed", My hope falls to the deepest part of the earth, Banker says "if you can give us another 10,000$ I can get you your loan", yea sure just let me get that real fast YEA RIGHT!!...He tells us to pull it out of hubbys retirement, I remind him that just a month ago he made us pull money out of there to pay off some stuff and prove we have closing costs, so thats 25,000 out of retirement (if we could pull out another 10 which we CAN'T)...I DON"T THINK SO that is our RETIREMENT!! Got off the phone, cried for about 30 minutes, folded up the treadmill took off my shoes and ate until i threw up. Then went and got the kids and had to explain to them that we may not be moving, they cried their eyes out which made me really mad at that main bank. we have done EVERYTHING that the banks (both local and main bank) have wanted, we have opened up our personal life, personal records have been turned over to them, signed 3 different contracts, and now they are saying that the appraiser fixed the appraiser to help us?!?!?!? we DON"T KNOW HIM!!!! I am so upset...BUT Hubby said not to worry, we will give it a couple of years, take our house off the market, fix it up a bit more, save as much money as possible, then start looking for another house...My only thought is that it will be impossible to find another house so close to our dream home...BUT I can't stay depressed, Hubby already feels like he has failed, and I can't add to that by looking down all the time. The house we live in is not a shack or anything, its just getting smaller it seems as the kids get older(its 1136 Sq Ft), and there are alot of things that need to be fixed, and we just didn't want to mess with fixing all of it. Our faith though leads us to believe that things happen for a reason, so if we end up losing this house (which looks possible but things could turn around in our favor) then that house wasn't meant for us. If it is meant for us everything will fall into place. It just hurts to know that my dream home is right down the street in the town I love and someone else may get it
Got up this morning and started off awful and its only 5:45am...Well not totally bad I had snack size sweets and not full size and I only had 2 before I came here. I am better today, not excited about not being able to move but we have been happy in this house for 4 years, I am sure another 2 will be just fine...It will be fun to fix it up and get our hands dirty in home improvements, but Part of me wants to jsut cry...but I WILL NOT binge today like I did yesterday, I was in pain all day even after i threw up...
If you read all this THANK YOU

I am sorry for yet another long POOR ME post but typing it all out has helped, just as i knew it would.
Hope Everyone is having better times lately....Ellis I am sorry to hear you are down as well

Hopefully we can all start off September in good spirits and in total control...