I'm just popping in for a minute

-- much easier to read than to reply

but I wanted to add my $0.02...
Kayley, who knows where you'll end up or what you'll end up doing?! I never talked to anyone when I was growing up and spent much of my time alone. I was so painfully shy and didn't know how to make friends and was afraid of looking foolish. It got worse and worse as I got older -- thru high school, I was pretty much totally isolated and suicidally depressed. Fortunately, I had two big things going for me. First, I'm insatiably curious, and couldn't stand the thought of "not seeing the end of the story" by prematurely ending my life. Secondly (and I'm only just realizing this), I'm pretty persistent. I try something, fail, lick my wounds, eventually (this could be years later, mind you), try again, etc... Another thing I've done that with is being shy and relating to people. So, even though for many years, I couldn't talk to anyone and thought the only thing that was positive about me was my I.Q., now I have this fancy schmancy management job

. And, sometimes I still feel like **** and totally inadequate and like I should just crawl in a hole. The difference now is that I know that is just a feeling and it will pass and it isn't reality. If this doesn't resonate at all for you -- sorry -- I just wished so hard when I was in the **** as a teenager & young adult that I had a glimpse of what life would be later so I could decide if it was worth it to keep going. I'm going to be 45 this month, and honestly, my life is so much better now than I could have ever imagined at 18 when I really didn't think I'd live to 21.
The other thing I wanted to comment on before I dash back to work

is multiple pound swings in weight in a day. I weigh myself 1-2x/day (my unofficial scale at home every a.m. and the official scale at the gym when I am there and remember). The good thing about weighing that often is that I've learned that TOM, eating an off plan meal, or just randomness can cause 3, 4, or 5 pounds differences on the scale. I get a sense of what's "normal variation" that way, so I don't freak out. I tend to get excited the first time I see a new "low point", but not too excited until it happens 2 or 3 times. I figure that maybe for a 125 pound woman, 3-5 pounds is a lot to get excited about, but for a 300+ woman, it is maybe in the noise

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Ok, back to work. Have a great OP day all!
