Gina, that was going to be my suggestion too!

Knowing my history of overeating and not honoring portion controls, I'm unable to have anything at home that isn't healthy. Anything I have in quantity, I don't have a tendency to overeat (frozen vegetables, dried beans, celery, carrots). And, even if I did get a little wild and dive into the veggies, doubtful little damage would be done.

My downfall when stressed is sweets, quickly followed by salty foods. When I get those cravings lately, I've been mentally reminding myself of the sickly, sleepy feelings I experience after consuming sugar - for now, it's holding my sweet-toothed wolf at bay.

Jean

Well, my inner dialogue actually tries to save me but I shut it up sometimes. I get so stressed and find myself roaming the kitchen. Next thing I know I am halfway through a binge. My inner voice tells me to stop that eating won't solve anything, it tells me that I will feel really bad after eating. But I put a metal zip on the voices lip. I only do these things when I am not eating healthy or exercising. I don't have stress eating when I am on routine. It's when I am truly unable to exercise b/c of illness or injury that set me down a spiral. I start to feel the fears. Fear of losing control, fear of losing weight and fear of losing my invisibility. I know it's not right but that's how I feel.

carafre

Unfortunately, Carafre, that "good" inner voice seems to be on vacation for me. I only have the ones that say bad things to me (Man, do I sound like a scary Sybil person!). But you know what I mean. Those negative tapes of how I will never be good enough, yadda, yadda, yadda.

Jean and Gina, I do try what you suggest. Typically I make out a menu, shop off it, and buy healthier substitutes for my cravings. But I will find whatever excuse I need to put me where I can get the food when I want it. Sad really. I need to wake that good voice up again.

So now I need a monkey killing alarm clock?????

Good morning all. It has been real quiet here - I know it is hard to stay in touch over the holidays. I actually have been doing ok. I hope you all have too.

So, trying to figure out what tools i need to kill Kong in 2006. Do I need to join a group? Tried that before. Started to be successful, then - not so much. What else can I do, to finally get rid of these hold habits and defense mechanisms which are holding me back? How can I find my inner energy again?

I used to do martial arts. I was strong, and had passion. i need to find that woman again.