But that's not realistic, and the more sensible part of me realizes that.
The main visual that helps me, though, is a string of paper clips that I have hanging on the cloth-covered cubicle wall above my computer at work. One paper clip for every pound I've lost, with a colored clip at the five pound marks. It loops up every 20 clips. I have hooks waiting for the next loop already.
At a glance, any time I'm at work and feeling discouraged, I can look up and see it. You know what it tells me?
- My plan IS working. I have lost weight.
- My plan IS working. I am healthier than I was before.
- My plan IS working. I am more energetic and flexible than I was before.
- My plan IS working. Just keep going, and soon I'll have another clip to add to the chain.
- My plan IS working. One pound a week is more than 50 in a year.
- My plan IS working. I'm learning healthy habits and how to make good choices about portions.
- MY PLAN **IS** WORKING!!!
Some days, when nothing else seems to help me feel encouraged, and I can tell I'm slipping into the negative-thinking-zone that will lead to "I can't succeed so I might as well eat everything in sight," looking at my precious paper clip chain is the only thing that keeps me on-plan. Or gets me back on-plan after falling off the wagon.
Find a visual that works for you. 12 pounds is NOTHING to sneeze at. That's an amazing success. Don't let all-or-nothing thinking negate your triumph.

Hopefully we will, I love him a lot. And, I am waiting to hear if I get a job from temp to perm *that's a whole big story* ... AND, still stressed about my poor Gram... And, generally wanting to grow up faster than time allows... BLAH LIFE! J/K I love life but grrrr sometimes!) Anyway, I just need to be more patient with EVERYTHING.