I feel so bad for you, Elaine - and I can say that, because I do the same EXACT thing - ALL THE TIME.

I'm sorry you lost your mentor of sorts, that has to be very painful. I wish you could go, but I so totally understand why you don't :c( I do that kind of thing all the time. I avoided a few free trips to my favorite place (WDW!) because of my weight. Can you believe that? I can't. I also HATE functions where I have to meet NEW people.
I don't want to be known as the fat girl (Too late!)

OH well. The bigger question is - WILL I be here a year from now? No. Not this weight.
No way.

I hope everyone has a fabulous Wednesday :c)

Erin, thank you so much for understanding and not giving me a laundry list of reasons why I should go anyway. I already know the reasons. It is actually MORE important to me right now to take care of ME emotionally than to go to a memorial service for someone who died two months ago that I do care about and am hurt about that he took the most extreme route to take of himself, but our relationship was not a close personal one. Going would be out of respect for the community as a whole and the role he played in it. If he were a relative or a close personal friend, that would be very different.

The reality is that I want to go, but I am not going to put myself in the position of feeling humiliated. So, I won't, and let the frustration of not being a part of something that is important to me be the real lesson here.

Anyway, I have my first weigh in tonight. I am really curious to see what the scale will show. I know I have lost some weight.

Hugs,


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How did it go, Elaine?

Hi Erin,

I was down 4 pounds. I do feel good about that. I am starting a new thrread... "My First Month".. so join me over there

Hugs,
Elaine

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