So overall I got to the gym twice last week, my eating could be better. Last night we had chips and dip and cupcakes. yeah right on plan with those foods! Well in self defense I am eating out of stress having to cope with all the crap I'm getting from my husband. He got switched to another med and this one should start working within 2 weeks. I'm hoping that it starts working even a little bit in the next few days because I've just about had it with his moods. Yesterday was really, really bad hence the chips and dip. I know I should be coping better but I really can't. I'm at the end of my rope on this particular issue. It makes me wonder in some ways if I can't attribute my continual weight gain to my husband's crappy mood for the past 18 years. I didn't start seriously gaining weight until we started living together. Like I'd been overweight in high school but only about 20-30 lbs max. Maybe if we hadn't gotten together I could have lost that a lot easier. I know it is wrong to blame others for a problem like this, it's not like he forces me to eat anything but in some ways I honestly feel that I wouldn't have a serious weight problem if I hadn't been using food to cope with his anger and mood swings. Now it is so that I've been eating this way for 18 years and it is incredibly hard to change. Well I'm hoping now that I've recognized this problem that I can try to change things.

Jen I think you may be on to something there. I think recognizing why I had gained weight (finally being free of crazy diets and resrticed eating dictated by my parents, and now being able to choose what I wanted so I went for all teh stuff I had been denied for 20 years) helped me better understand why I over ate and how I got to where I am. With that information I am better able to cope with the feelings associated with food. I understand that my dad is an emotional eater and in his highs and lows he fed us what his emotions wanted and we became emotional eaters as well. Now that I know this I am able to recognize when I am eating b/c of emotions. Prior to this I thought for sure I wasn't an emotional eater. I admit I still do it, but I understand now that I am doing it and I stop sooner than I used to.

You are right though, you can't turn back time or really blame someone for making you eat, but in my opinion it may help someone cope with the furture in a better way. At least I think it has for me.

Talk to you laters I need to clean my house!!!!

~misty