Thanks for the encouraging words, ladies! I really appreciate it!

As expected, the scale is up today. I'm just not sure if I want to go to TOPS tonight and face the humiliation of another gain.

I do feel a little better, though. I went and walked 2 3/4-miles, and I jogged 1/4 of a mile. No matter how the scale is responding, I'm doing much better things for my body than I was before. Jogging, even that little, tiny bit, makes me feel a sense of accomplishment. Jogging used to be the furthest thing from my mind. So, I'm *trying* to look at the positive side of things!

Brenda: You snuck in on me there! I know exactly how you feel. I want everything I can't have. Not tons of it. Just bites here and there. Just a little taste. My DH catches me just staring at food lately. We'll go out to eat, and I'll order something completely OP. I eat it. It tastes good. But, I can't stop staring at the sin on my DH's plate, whatever it might be. I just sit and stare and want. It's really, really bad! I'm like you, for the first few months I was completely happy with my choices. Now, all I want is everything I can't have. It's not a good feeling, and food is about all I think about these days...

It bites doesn't it? I WANT to be thinner and I AM making healthier choices for my body. But dang it why can't stuff that's GOOD for us taste like the stuff that's BAD for us? lol. I made brownies--ate 2. not even sure why I ate the 2nd one. I'm waiting for them to cool off and then I'm throwing them in the freezer. I've decided I need to cut up cauliflower and celery and if I need something to chew on it's going to be that. Not that it's as good as something chocolate--but it'll be a better choice (sigh). I've got a ways to go before I get where I want to be weight wise. I'm not going to get there by eating low carb brownies and pistacchios. It's back on trying for strict induction for me. I think part of my mistake was intaking too much cheese. I'd eat it on my salad AND my eggs in the morning. One day at a time!!! Starting now...

Afternoon Everyone,
I'm still feeling a little down but better then this mornin. I think its TOM.. he's sticking around longer then usual this week, maybe it's all the water I've been drinking. *shrug*

Jina Hang in there girl.. You'll get out of this rut!
It bothers me as well about all the junk some people can put into thier mouths and never gain a pound. And working in a resturant I see plenty of it. I try to convince myself.. "those fries look to salty".. "that cake looks too darn sweet".. "those buns look hard as rocks" It's all a mind game.. you know I'd love to sit down to that bunned burger .. fat fries and yummy cake. And I could! Noone is stopping me.. noone is standing there monitoring every move I make. But I don't.. because I physically feel so good compared to what I did 3 weeks ago. Mentally is not always that good, that night my family wanted Pizza Hut for dinner I was devistated, I was ready to cry. I sat there with that "horrible" salad watching them eat all the "good" stuff.. ah thats right.. its supposed to be the other way around All I can say is that bothered me alot!

Sped - thanks for the tips .. I'm going to play with it a little later tonight. I just thought I would feel it right off the bat like I do when I'm using the AB roller. With that I KNOW I'm working them bad boys

JJCJ - The first thing I did when I moved here was rip up the floor of my bathroom.. It was a 2 day job that turned into forever. It's such a pain in the rear but the results are well worth it.

Brenda - I know exactly how you feel. It take every last bit of willpower for me to turn some foods down. I just keep telling myself.. maybe later I'll have some.. maybe later.. and later never comes lol It's hard but it works for me.

Shimma - stop.. breath.. take a break.. geesh you make me tired just reading your posts. busy busy

Hillary - GO GO! Great job on the loss!! Feels good huh?

Star - Thanks for bringing that article to our attention. It just frustrates me to no end.

To Anyone I missed

Now its time for me to do a flyby cleaning of the livingroom before kiddos get out of school. I guess my break is over *sigh* LET THE GAMES BEGIN!

Jina my darling!!!! I know how you feel I have been in a rut for about month and I have felt every feeling in the book about it, girl hang in there!! I am right here with you! Let s amke quiche it will make us feel better!!

JJ good luck with the floors, I have to do the same as soon as it stops raining this spring.

Star thanks for bringing up the article, I will be responding soon.

Hillary EXCELLENT JOB!!!!!!

Trazzie glad you are feeling better today.

Brenda good call on freezing the brownies!!! excellent idea!

Hi Sped and I am sooo lgad the OT last week didn't stop you any!

Shimma you are so busy you make my head spin!!!

Hello to any others I might miss or might have logged in after this!

I am off to the gym, got off at 12:30 and I am sooooooooo done with training, I get to go back to my normal P/T schedule!!! AND I get to see my DH daily!! We made up for some lost time this V-day weekend (hubba hubba!! ) ROFL!! Talk to you later!

Had no time to post recently...and while I can now read the threads from work I cannot reply - what a bummer!

Back from my aunt's funeral in Montreal - I am sad that my aunt died as she was the last of a generation (my dad's sister and the last of 7 children)...but she was very old and lived a hard life (she's over 90 - no one really knows her age.....and she was in concentration camps during the war and witnessed the death of her first husband and two small children at the hands of the ****s).

However, I found out I am now a heiress! (so appropriate for a princess don't you think?).....don't get too excited...I am exaggerating a bit...but I did see smidgens of the will (where both my brother and I are mentioned) and we each get 15% of the estate...whatever that may be. There is a duplex to be sold with contents I guess...and bonds, cash etc......and I suspect none of this will be settled until the end of this year...so I don't know what I'm getting - but it is still exciting to dream a little? (will most probably put the $$ down on our mortgage...but it is nice to ponder other princess like things I would prefer to do?)

It is freezing cold here........need to warm up.

Eating has been bad over the weekend (see pig out thread for further details - but be warned it's not pretty!)......and trying to get back on track! I did have a glass of wine w/dinner tho...and some sf chocolate....and have been visiting the washroom ever since (will she ever learn??? )

Bored at work - still don't really like my new job. But they seem to think I know what I"m doing.

DH worling late again (as he did last night and all last week).....wish he would come home to warm up my FROZEN TOES!

That's it ladies - hi to everyone and I love reading your posts while I eat lunch at work - just wish I could join in!

Froufy

Froufy - I just had to post after you so you wouldn't be the last one for a change

That's amazing about your aunt. Did she ever tell you about any of the stuff she went through growing up? The Jewish part of my family is from Germany so I have a particular interest in it.


I'm feeling cruddy still, but I'm toughing it out. I had lunch with my mom today. That's the first time we've done anything with just the two of us in I don't know how long. It appears that younger brother who brought the girl home over the weekend is talking about marrying said girl in May! Not much time for planning there! I'm all confused about it since they've been dating for a while (8 months, I think) but he just told her he loves her for the first time this weekend. Crazy!

One last little note and then off to be for me. I found my newest perfect t-shirt!!! Froufy, if they would have had two, I was gonna buy you one. It's PINK and it says "I AM A PRINCESS (spoil me)" how great is that???