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Originally Posted by SFNinerGirl
So I just got done with the color run.
Needless to say, I did my best for someone who didn't workout with IP or previously before that. 3.5 miles in 45 minutes. Even did it with a sprained ankle.
But of course I can't enjoy any of this because of my anxiety around the pictures. I'm mad because in my head, the pictures don't reflect how I feel about myself, and then I get depressed because I look so awful. My friends are posting them on facebook, and I spend time untagging myself or begging for them to be taken down.
This has gone on for a while, maybe 4 years now. I know I should let it be my motivation, but in the moment right now, I just want to crawl into a hole and not come out.
Feeling really bad about myself, worried about future losses after seeing my pics and how I'm going to look for Maui. Driving myself in circles about whether or not to workout on IP now because of the pics.
I need someone to shake me out of this stupid mental cycle because I'm not managing my emotions or thoughts very well right now. 
Thanks for listening.
Awwwwww. You should be SO SUPER PROUD of yourself for running! Don't get down on pictures! I do the same thing. I think I look so great & feel so great and then I see some dumb picture on facebook that makes me look AWFUL! I finally have convinced myself to not let it bother me. The imperfections we see are not what everyone else is seeing. We are being way more critical of ourselves then the rest of the world. So keep on running and don't let the pictures get you down!
I have been wanting to do a color run.... there is one coming to my town this fall and it looks so fun!