Thanks every for your continued advice. You are right, Nola, I don't want to be "that girl". While I will struggle with having a healthy relationship with food the rest of my life, I don't want to be someone that can't occasionally have a treat or indulge in a rich meal. The thing I will have to watch for is making sure that it is an occasional treat and that I don't slip back into old behaviors.

Talk about being rewarded for bad behavior, though, I weighed in at 235 the morning of the pizza, 234 yesterday, and I am 232 this morning.

The naughty little voice inside my head this morning said "Woohoo! Look at that! Pizza and lack of exercise ain't so bad, is it??"

I understand what you mean. I think that way too, and it drives me crazy! But I don't know how to change it.

i try not to think of it as cheating as well. its all about moderation and satisfying your craving. if i crave something, the more i try to fight the craving, the worse i start to feel. it just takes over my mind and I cant think of anything else until i eat what i want. and the longer i hold off for, the more i tend to eat when i get it - that is usually worse than when i eat it right when i want it because i feel like i am more in control.

for times when i do succumb to my craving, i just try to work out more, or eat a tiny bit less here and there.. that way i feel less guilty!