I didn't eat perfectly healthy today, but I did avoid a major binge. This is kind of long, but I want to get it out!
I was really upset due to some problems with this perspective job. I am unemployed, but recieved a contract for a job recently. However, there is so much government paperwork and clearances needed, I'm not sure I will be cleared on time to start.
So, anyways, I went out to get some movies- I needed a distraction for the rest of the night and there were a few I have wanted to see. I was crying almost the entire way to Blockbuster and thinking- the only thing that goes with movies- is a ton of food. I started imagining sitting in my bed, watching movies, and eating to my heart's content. This thought was EXCEEDINGLY tempting and I was sure it would make my day allll better.
I caught myself and acknowledged what I was feeling, which was frustrated and scared. I asked myself how exactly eating would help (it would feel great for about 10 minutes- then I would be miserable) I go to the gym at night (at like 1 in the morning- hey, I'm unemployed!) and I thought, if I binge, I wont work out. If I binge AND don't work out- I will feel like I ruined my day. So I made it back safely to my house, watched my movies and ate a normal dinner.
