There are so many things that I want to do that I cant.

- Wear cute boots that are calf high.
- Be able to wear a swimming suit and be comfortable.
- Go to an amusement park and ride the rides. (I suppose I could do that now but it is in the middle of the winter and I live in Minnesota so the Valleyfair is closed)..
- Be able to go clothes shopping with my friends and not feel like the outsider as NONE of the clothes in the cute shops will fit past my knees.
- To be able to finally shop at the Victoria Secret for cute undergardments. I hate always wearing granny panties and lunch lady bras. LOL.
- There is probably alot more but cant think of anymore now

I would love just to wear shorts again in the summer instead of always covering up my fat legs with capris! Also, being thinner would allow me to do more with my daughter although being fat hasn't stopped me from doing stuff but some things I dont do cause of my weight.

lunch lady bras? :P Lane bryant has cute bras.

Yes!! That's a goal of mine this spring, too!!!

Also, and this may fall under the 'TMI' category, but I'd like to take the 'top' position again. Right now all I can envision is my big ol' belly slapping up and down with my terror-stricken partner, eyes bulging, underneath, and it keeps things very, umm, missionary in the bedroom.

I'd love to go indoor skydiving... it looks so scary/fun!

Horseback riding, worry free clothing shopping, mountain climbing, hike the grand canyon, run marathons, martial arts training, and a million other things.

I was thinking more about how we could start doing some of the things now...instead of waiting....well obviously it doesn't always work that way...some things, like shopping at "normal" stores, and running won't work for me for a while...but some things like buying nice clothes that fit right now, or being more confident and standing in front in the picture anyway...more adventurous, more physical... like taking a dance class, or doing yoga maybe.

Go horseback riding....sigh. I long for the day!

marigrace, I took my very first yoga class this morning. It's something I've wanted to do for a long time, but I'd always felt too fat/out of shape. I'm still bigger than the rest of the girls in the class, but I can keep up for the most part and I loved it. And the more I do it now, the better I will be once more of the weight is off.

Don't worry, you're not alone here!

I am going to go on a hike again. I'm planning to be able to do it in February. Last time I was on a hike was about 30 lbs ago. I know I'm not going to be at the weight again in Feb, but I'm going to be able to at least go on one. I can't wait.

Pole. Dancing. Workout. Classes.


(And also, maybe looking nice in the majority of things I try on in stores like Wet Seal, not just trying on the biggest of everything and hoping that something is "okay.")

Hi Emily...thats what I meant...you are starting to live your dreams now.

No, I've put everything on hold long enough. Time to take it off hold. Today, I went shopping at FREDERICK'S OF HOLLYWOOD. Frederick's of Hollywood, people. I'd only been in that store once before, about 5 years ago, buying bridal shower lingerie for a friend. Well, today I dropped $80 on a nightie, matching bra, bra that matches my pajamas, and 4 pair of drawers (no split crotch though, you gotta draw the line somewhere! LOL). Why not?? I can wear a 36DD and L unders...I deserve to shop at Frederick's of Hollywood if I want to! And so do you! So does everyone. And if you have to order extended sizes online, so what???? Do it, you deserve it just as much as anyone. That goes for everything everyone has on hold. As long as it's not something physically dangerous, like maybe bungee jumping at 405 lbs...do it. Don't put it off. You don't know if you'll still be here tomorrow. Seriously.

^^^^^ what DC said!!