WTG Kayley!! That's awesome!!

So, I LOVED Zumba. The room was PACKED... probably because it was the first night for it.... I'm sure it'll thin out somewhat. It was really fun! I didn't have time to be overly self-conscious about shakin' my booty in front of a bunch of people because you have to watch the instructor non-stop to keep up with and learn the steps. lol. It was definitely my favorite of the classes I've taken, and the one where I didn't check the clock and was even a little disappointed when it was over. It should help me step up my workout schedule and burn some more fat.

Also, made fajitas so spicy tonight my nose ran while I ate them. (I'm into that) AND they were ridiculously healthy. Off to relax and get a good night's sleep tonight.... something else I need to work on....

Hippymomma, how do you make your fajitas? I've used kits before but I know the salsas & white tortilas are not good for weight loss. WTG on the class, what sort of dancing is it, a bit like salsa ?xxxxxx
Pink, WOW, not just me who does that then? Just take a breath, get your essay (or finish it) put some make-up on (if you wear it) or perfume or a 'lucky' scarf, jewellery (whatever makes you feel GOOD) then go. The longer you leave it the worse it gets, I know from experience!!!! Seize the day! once you get back moving it will seem so much better, anyone asks say you've had a bug/virus, see if your tutors can 'let you off' the marks lost-do they know you have your illness? I'm sure if they're aware of it (even better if you have documentary eveidence to prove it) they will give you leeway. Good luck!!! Please let us know how you're doing xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Annie, I hope you're getting support, hugs & any meds you need, I'm thinking of you a lot, as I'm sure people on here are too.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Catherine how's being a car owner going?xxxxxxxx
Nooch, great to 'see' you again.xxxxxxxxxx
Emilymay, how was the first day/2 days at work? Hope you enjoyed it & helped lots of people.xxxxxxxxxx
Went to the Dr yesterday, I've got sciatica (sp??) gotta have physio, but if it helps I'm all for it, he was also worried about my stress levels (sons being disabled, Dad ill...etc...) . Now I'll be seeing a counsellor too. Hubby took me to a local craft shop & I picked up some stuff to make my own cards (something I've been wanting to do for AGES) & he also paid for me to go on a card-making morning at the shop on Wednesday, I'm quite excited by it!! The shop itself is FULL of 'stuff' some of it looks WAY too nice to put on cards, little charms which I'd make into earrings or bracelets instead, lol..Steve looked worried (he saw pound signs & thought I'd bankrupt us!!) but I promised to not buy more stuff ...yet...lol!!!
I'm behaving food-wise but not much exercise as TOM is still here.
xxxxxxxsharon

Kayley - Fantastic! I think you deserve some kind of reward for all your hard work! Think of something nice you can do for yourself!

Hippiemama - Awesome! Maybe I will try Zumba too... not sure if I could keep up though!

voodoo - Cardmaking sounds awesome! What kind of cards are you going to make? Crafts are good to help with stress.


I had a terrible night. I woke up at 2 am and crammed my face full of all kinds of crap. I am up 2 lbs. I feel like giving up. You work hard for weeks and it's all blown on one night of eating crap. I KNEW weighing myself was a BAD idea.

I see the psychiatrist today. I am going to see if I can get her to write me a note for my late assignments and also to see if she will give me some anti-anxiety meds, at least temporarily.

Have a good day everyone. I want to go back to bed and cry, but I am going to force myself to go to class.

Kayley: CONGRATS on reaching your goal!!!

Catherine: tax people suck lol. Hubby and I got audited from 2001..just got the bill the other day for $530.00. I am sorry..but if they didnt catch it in 2001, they should not be allowed to bill us in 2009. Just my opinion!

Voodoo: Card making is so much fun! I signed up for a group that sends cards to our soldiers over seas so they can use them to write home to their loved ones! I am currently working on Christmas ones because thy need to be post marked my Nov 1st. I also make my own birthday cards..Christmas cards and everyone is so much happier to see those then store bought! Post some pics when you get them done.

Pinkflamingo: DOn't be too hard on yourself..honestly..sometimes we need to eat crap! lol

As for me: Today I go to the surgeons to get my stitches out. The Diarhea has subsided a little bit. Last night we watched the Broncos football game. It is funny to hear hubby talk like he knows anything about football. LOL He will watch Broncos football..but me and my oldest can watch game after game after game of whomever.

I will be working on more Christmas cards today for the group I belong to. I think I am going to try to have a "card party" at my house before Valentines day. They say that is a really big holiday they need cards for.

My niece and nephew will be over today. This outta be fun lol. I have to make sure I have juice and bubbles LOL

Have a great day all

Kayley good job girl, It seems like it's taking me forever to loose that one and a half pound i need to hit twenty pounds lost. I'll get there,

Lost sorry to hear about your DH. I have panic attacks and anxiety as well prayers go out to you .

to everyone else, keep up the great work and am proud of you, sorry I haven't been around much just been busy and dealing with an issue. Take care all.

Hello all...i had a great workout today for 1.5 hrs doing my xtreme fit mat workout and my eating has been excellent for the past 2 days and i have no intentions of stepping on the scale until monday morning and i am hoping to have a big weight loss and hoping that some of that 5 lb gain last week was partially water weight gain so just wanted to come on here and give a quick update.

talk to you ladies later
have a great day
Heather

Sharon - I'm loving the van. I keep wanting to pick people up at bus stops though. I haven't had a wreck yet, so that's a good thing too. It's nice to go shopping and not have to worry about how to get something home.

Cyn-We've been in a government Bermuda triangle. They have a type of IRA here that is just for the disabled called an RDSP. To encourage people to start them (especially for their disabled kids), the government is going to do matching funds for the first so many years. Anyway, We've been fighting with the Canadian IRS every year after tax time because they make us fill out forms proving we are married. They just can't seem to accept it or something. So when we applied at the bank (BMO) for the savings thing, his went through, but mine got bounced because the agency (HRDC) overseeing the program didn't talk to Revenue or got the wrong information from them as to whether I had a disability tax credit certificate to be eligible for the RDSP. So I had to scream at HRDC to talk to RC. When they finally got their stuff settled, HRDC told me to call BMO to have them resubmit my application. BMO said they would Oct. 1. Didn't happen. Now BMO says they can't because their computer won't let them re-submit. We have now appealed to the BMO Ombudsman for help, and our Member of Parliament. If it isn't fix soon, I will loose $8000. Ticked doesn't even begin to describe it.

Sharon ~ I kind of make them differently every time depending on what I have. My cupboards are bare so this is what I did last night...

Used 3 corn tortillas. I always go with these, they're much better for you than flour. I heat them in a nonstick pan until a little browned on both sides.

I sauteed some sliced red, green, and yellow bell peppers in a skillet with just a little non-stick spray. I added 1/4 cup of the good, fresh salsa you can get in the cooler at the grocery store. A little cumin, cayenne, chili powder, garlic, jalapeno sauce (mild kind, just for flavor) and cooked until the peppers were not so crunchy. Then, I added some cold, pre-cooked shrimp for the last couple of minutes. I ended up tearing up the tortillas and putting it all together in a bowl because it's easier to eat. Normally I'd have onions in there and maybe some beans or whole grain rice. And I'd definitely top it off with a TBSP of light sour cream. But, it was pretty good for using what's left in my kitchen. lol.

Watching The Biggest Loser. I'm so into it this year. (For obvious reasons. lol) Anyone else?

Day 16 of the Shred is finished. 14 to go!

Yesterday, my boyfriend took me out to lunch at Olive Garden...talk about big time temptation! But I got the unlimited soup, salad, and breadsticks. Didn't eat any of the breadsticks (empty calories), had two big plates of salad with light dressing, and a bowl of Minestrone soup (surprisingly low in calories!) I saved some calories, because I did let myself have two bites of my boyfriend's cheesecake. And you know, I don't feel bad about it, because I allotted those calories, and I wanted some, so I knew that if I didn't, I would binge later.

Christmas kind of came early for me as well. My boyfriend & I went to Best Buy, and he picked me up the iPod Touch & 500 gb external hard drive that I'd been wanting! I was so surprised. Love it! The touch is so great. I've got my Sparkpeople app., and it's soooo handy.

Andrea - I've heard such great things about Zumba! Glad you enjoyed it. I downloaded two different Zumba workouts about a month ago, and when I finish with my 30 days of the Shred, I think I'll try it out. I've been a big fan of The Biggest Loser for about 4 years now. Love that show! I even tried out for it back in June for the next season, but didn't get chosen, obviously.

Pink - Feeling better today? *hugs*

Tracy - It's always those last couple of pounds. You're almost there, so keep it up!

I started Yoga, yeah me! could only do 5 minutes, and I was awful and I think things are stuck where I am not sure they should go, but yeah me!

Hi everyone,

Still struggling. I just ate half a bag of chips. I need to get RIGHT BACK ON IT tomorrow, right???

I saw the psychiatrist and she is starting me on Zoloft. She also gave me some klonopin/clonazepam/rivotril for anxiety. So right now I am feeling much better, just a little sleepy! Feel like I have undone all my weight loss though in the past couple of days

*tosses her scale out of the house* I swear to all that is holy moly...I'm going to kill it.

So, I did step on the scale, despite being banned (yeah okay I'm banned now) and my friggin' weight this morning is 272 and I sort of blink and go "BS!" lol. My boyfriend is convinced I've gained muscle, he has noticed me flexing my arms a bit and said they look more shapely. I also think I ended my TOM yesterday, but still I have made some poor choices over the past month and a half, emotional eating again, and here I am. I don't know if it is weight gain or still water. I have been rather bloated lately, but the thing is it bugs me that it is that high right now. So, even though I'm hopeful it will go down I have to admit I'm making some major mistakes with food intake. I'm also a bit depressed, which is why I've been a bit quiet the past two days. I really miss my Mom right now and I always miss her during the holidays, but this year I really really need her and well...knowing she has passed on in the way that she did just makes me feel down. So, with all of that...weight gain.

Going to try a few things and weigh-in on Sunday. I do think I'm not eating enough then I overeat at dinner (a very old habit). It is hard as like right now I'm not hungry, yet I'm forcing myself to eat or I don't have time later and I'm not eating enough, especially for a raw food vegan. I just need like a zillion mini meals a day. I get full easily. It is really frustrating and now I'm seeing that the happiest I am is when I'm just eating veggies and things. When I start adding in those cooked foods...well that is when it goes downhill. I seem to be unable to manage that as of yet, but I think part of my problem CARBS and FATS. So, having the rest of October clean with little fat is essential I think.

Bah...frustrating. My clothes don't feel tighter, but would they with a few pounds up? Or is this not real weight? Is the exercising and soreness and everything adding poundage? LOL .... That is what I'm asking myself, but the thing is it makes you wish you had some robot that can look at you and tell you what is going on. Like "yes you've gotten FATTER" lol...I would love that.

Haha Update:...boyfriend has physically banned me from the scale. He says until I get my "head straight" and then he said "understand." lol.... The 'understand' part means business lol. Okay...tantrum is over, I'll work on my little depression and I'll refocus....hey at least I'm like actually doing the exercise part for once. :P And with WEIGHTS! lol...well 3 pound weights and my little dinky wrist weights. I'm giving myself a pep talk... can you tell?

So so so many things affect the scale. We have to remember that as a tool to measure fat loss, it is a poor tool indeed!!!! Our bodies are mostly water, so any fluctuations there affect the number on the scale. But we don't know when we watch the scale go up or down why it's doing that. Fat? Muscle? Water?? Who knows!

So, use it as one of your tools. Measuring is another good tool. As is how your clothes fit.

But the scale is and do not let it get the best of you!!!

Totally what I need to hear! I think I am letting it get the best of me and I think continuing to refocus my energies into something much more positive is essential for my own peace of mind as well as just living. I am most happy when I am just LIVING lol. It is funny how I say that then fixate on certain things! I still have a lot of learning to accomplish.

I mean even those fancy scales don't get you the information you really need...for now I'm going to refocus into positive energies.

And it is the especially when it disagrees with me. lol