PeatrixPotter - Ohhhh yeah, it's the guy from the library.

It makes me so mad that I fell into that behavior again so quickly--I totally did not see it coming! I literally had not seen him at ALL this quarter, which was probably actually a
good thing because I was really starting to get over it and accept that he wasn't interested... I had basically stopped thinking about whether I might see him on any given day (i.e. not trying to look "especially" cute on those days, or retouching my make-up before going in, or anything like that!). But then I randomly saw him on Tuesday and he started talking to me (yes, HE initiated it!) like everything was totally normal, and it all just came back! We ended up talking for like a half-hour, and it was *exactly* like before, and I
swear he was flirting with me and everything, and then when my shift was over and I had to end the conversation, he asked me when else I would be working this week, and was like "Oh, I think I'll work that day too, maybe I'll see you then..." Like he actually wanted to see me, or like he'd be looking forward to it or something!--I was like,
WTF is going on here?!?! 
So of course I was anticipating it, and then I
didn't end up seeing him and not only is it a letdown, but I start freaking out like
OMG he probably didn't come in today because he *knew* I'd be here, and he wanted to avoid me! but then I'm like,
NO, that doesn't make sense, because he's never been anything but totally friendly to you! Ughhhh. I literally feel like all of his behavior has indicated that he likes me, EXCEPT that he didn't freaking call me that time... Maybe he wants a reconciliation? I don't understand this situation at all!!! But I could have written your post myself, word-for-word--I like(d?) him SO much, and I just get so obsessive about little things like this, and 9 times out of 10 I just end up setting myself up for disappointment.
Anyways, I should probably just stop thinking about that for now, heh.

Thank you sooo much to all you ladies for the encouragement over this situation on Thursday... Lately I have been reeeeally trying to stop this habit of letting the influence of
other people determine whether or not *I* have a good day.

Not just eating-wise or whatever, but in general--it seems like a lot of times, I anticipate little unreliable things like that, and so much of my general enjoyment of the day will depend on whether or not it comes through... And that's such a bad attitude to have! Instead I'm implementing what I call "making my OWN fun," where I just tell myself that dammit, this is going to be a kick-a** day no matter
what happens, because *I* say so!

Just trying to enjoy life for what it is, you know? Valuing EVERY day as an opportunity to have a good time, rather than thinking that some days are "better" than others because of the people I (
might) get to see/things I (
might) get to do. I'm sure it sounds a little cheesy - and it doesn't always work, to be sure (um heeey Thursday!

) - but I think it IS helping.
Gawsh, I got so chatty over my stupid little dramzz that I didn't even mention that today is
day 35!!! 5 WEEKS BINGE-FREE, woohoo!

And to make it even sweeter, I totally went out last night and had a few drinks and DIDN'T BINGE afterwards... Man, that is a huge accomplishment for me! Hehe. Hope you ladies all have a fabulous weekend! The weather here is soooo gorgeous.
