I can so relate!
However, a slight suggestion for the interim, get the baggy shirts but then get a really cute funky belt or even a really cute scarf (to be used as a belt) and wear with the shirt. That way you see your progress and look really hip at the same time. Add some cool earrings, bracelets, etc. and you can do a lot with those baggy shirts to make them look more fitted and stylish while still having plenty of room for the girls.
At any rate, good luck. I purged my closet yesterday and now have 3 pairs of jeans, about 10 - 14 shirts, 6 pairs of undies and 2 bras that actually fit (mostly) I have a lot of empty drawers and can't buy much as I'm still 47 lbs or so away from goal.....but at least what I have mostly fits and the "fat" start clothes are gone completely!
Oh, and about the tankini's! Try the halter style tankini, the regular tankini's always looked horrible on me, but the halter ones work a little better. Also check out water water everywhere and look around online. There are a lot of places that you can buy top and bottom separately just for that reason. At any rate, good luck.

It's depressing!


I felt exactly like you... so hopeful, but left feeling fat and discouraged.