Hi Amy
Like you I was also successful with WW, in fact 62lbs and I reached my goal weight, maintained for 3 years and then my life fell apart and I gained it ALL back.

So, 1) You HAVEN'T gotten so far as so many of us have, that is you haven't gained it all back. 2) You HAVE the tools and the choice to do it, 3) Mentally, yes it's hard to get back into that frame of mind (yes you have to be ready), 4) On the other hand, it's NOT that hard - make the switch, COMMIT and do it.

Write down all of the reasons that you think it's NOT the right time for you, then actually argue with yourself that these are just excuses. Write down all the reasons you WANT to do it and see how they outweigh (no pun intended!) the excuses.

WW is such a great program and really easy to do, IMHO. I joined WW probably about 10 times since I gained all my weight back (my top was 101 KG or 222 lbs 2 years ago) and probably made it back for w/i's 3 or 4 times max. I'm now doing it online, weighing at home each Sunday and PLANNING ahead at least one day so I know exactly how to attack each day in front of me.

You CAN do this. I'm now starting Week 8 from my online re-join - usually I peter out after 3 weeks (has been the trend) but I broke through it and even though I'm losing slowly, I'm LOSING and that's what counts! I also feel better, have more energy, am happier, feel more in control, etc. You can have ALL of those things too, you just have to commit and do it.

I have to admit that I have blown is all weekend. I just can't stay on track. What lies behind is all is that I want these foods that I keep on eating, I keep getting angry. It seems like everyone can have them and not gain weight, but me.
I swear... what is wrong with me that I can't stay on track?

You're human.

Forget about the rest of the weekend. How about making sure dinner tonight goes according to plan. Even if you have no points left... doesn't matter. Pick a number of points you'd like dinner to be, and stick to it. Just for dinner.

It does often seem like no one else has to watch what they eat... has to constantly be picking the healthier version... the lower points version... The truth is that everyone on 3FC has to. We're all here. Same problem, same solution. We've got the same feelings. It can be lonely. But, we aren't alone in it.

I'm new and I read these stories about others who were on WW, had success, and gained it back like I did. I lost 68 lbs in 2007 on WW but life got in the way and now I find myself back at the starting line. Maybe I needed to gain that weight back to really learn my lesson. But I'm going to do it this time! It's been 3 weeks and so far I've lost 9 lbs. 156 to go!

I am struggling as you are, too. I had been two pounds from goal, and preparing for our wedding. Once our wedding happened in early June, I have been struggling. All of my momentum has been placed by inertia. I am tracking every day, no matter how much I eat, and going to the meetings. The meeting leaders drive me crazy, yet I like being around other members, so they offer me indirect support.

So right now, I am going through the motions. I figure even if my heart isn't in it, at least, I can't be too hard on myself for abandoning it entirely.

I hope it gets better for you. I know, eventually, it will for me, too. Have a great day.