Me too ellibelle, i eat everything i can find, even if i don't even like the taste of it, i feel like i just need to eat it Some days it's ok, i don't feel like eating at all, and other days it's just so hard not to eat everything i can find. Then i'm back to square one. It's a vicious circle i'm trying to desperately to break...

Yes, yes, yes and YES. I'm doing better lately, but can still vividly remember those times when I just kept eating until I felt uncomfortably full...and then kept on until my stomach actually HURT! I just couldn't seem to get enough to make myself satisfied. And, yes, like most of you have said, what I was eating wasn't even that GOOD! Didn't taste all that great, but I kept stuffing it down. With me, it's always been something about "solid food"...food that sits heavily in my stomach, like meat & potatoes...and of course enough CHOCOLATE can feel pretty "solid", too. But things like salad greens or puffy, insubstantial things...anything without much bulk...leaves me feeling like I've hardly eaten at all. I am working desperately to "retrain" myself to eat small amounts and be satisfied. Sometimes I'm successful, and other times, not. I sure can identify with everything you all are saying, and I too am very grateful for a place to share my feelings and not feel stupid or freaky.

Take good care, all -
E

I feel really ashamed and anti-social sometimes too!

One thing I've found that really really really helps IF I JUST FREAKING DO IT...is exercise. Like outside-the-comfort-level exercise, hiking the steep hills, running the downhill. I really think it's true what they say about endorphins!

But just like people who take psych meds, feel better and then quit taking them and get into a funk, that's what I do with exercise and other healthy behaviors. I get to feeling better, and then gradually slack off; then the slack-off starts to get me down, when I don't sleep it's hard to get up and walk, when I don't walk I start the day off wrong, when I start the day off wrong, I end up nabbing that muffin and it all goes wrong before I know it.

ME TOO! One thing journaling helped me see was this was a kind of PMS related thing, although a week-10 days before my period starts, rather than right before.

yeah, mine's MUCH worse around that time of the month... although it's really a constant thing. i make excuses and somehow even manage to convince myself that my lies for why i don't want to go out are true. i'm really trying to work on it... i'm planning to go out friday evening, so hopefully i'll stick to that. i'm nervous about it cos it's to a thing in town where there will be a LOT of people, and with my anxiety i'm sometimes really uncomfortable in crowds.

I can relate to that iriswhispers because i too get bad anxiety around a lot of people. Even walking in town shopping i start to feel breathless etc. It's easier said than done, but just try to concentrate on having a good time! Good luck

I know EXACTLY what you mean, i've lost most of my friends because i kept making excuses not to go out with them, and i just isolate myself because i feel to fat. i used to be thinner, and better looking, and now i just dont want people to look at me. I know, its so sad, but its all true.

This isolation has led me to feel quite depressed. Im a social person and i make friends easily, but i just feel so crapy all the time now..

so i know exacxtly what you mean, but for now, i guess if we focus on losing weight, and talking to each other, slowly slowly we'll feel better and we wont be as isolated...

i am going downtown tonight... i AM doing it.

i just hope the anxiety doesn't cause me to start chain smoking again. that's my typical release and honestly just thinking about being around that many people makes me want to smoke.

I just have to say thank you. This is one of the first threads I have read on this board. I found it through a string of links that lead me, eventually, here. No quick fix promises, just honesty. And what honesty! So many of the experiences, emotions, excuses, lies, and pain are things I can relate to in such a complete manner that it’s nearly overwhelming. I can’t put it into better words.

It’s nice to know – despite that it means others suffer – that really, you aren’t alone. There’s some guilt that comes with an admission like that, but it certainly wouldn’t outweigh the happiness at knowing that there is no more “alone” in this.

I hope you folks won’t mind my request to join you here.

Of course you can join! We're just glad to be able to help you! There are so many people i can relate to here, whilst in my life there's no one i can really confide in. This is like my counselling really It does make you feel guilty to admit to some of these things, but my God do i feel so much better afterwards!

I'm sure that if you feel you can relate to this thread, you'll feel the same way about the other threads in 'Chicks in Control' forum. I'll look forward to reading some of your later posts

It is so nice not to be alone. I am a fun loving Zelda lol. Make everyone laugh and have a very nice time doing it. Problem. I am painfully shy around more than just a few people. Even with the hubby's family if it is more than just his mom and dad and ONE sibling. There are just so darn many of them lol.

I had friends from grade school and as they moved away to other states, in the last few years. I haven't made many new friends. I mean friends that you sit with and chat, have friends at church and say hello to the neighbors next door kind of thing. They aren't real friends more like friendly acquaintances. Hard for people to understand what it is like. Here on the net is so different. I chat and talk and have so much fun.

We belong to a card club that started just as on line but is now face to face. I was the FLASH the dealer girl ( to distract them and get better cards ) lol. My husband tried to explain to them what I am really like, before we were all going to meet for the very first time. They didn't believe him. We met the president of the club for lunch. That night he went on line and told everyone our little FLASH the dealer girl is really an arm pit hider lol. If she stayed any closer to her husband she would have been his skin. Now, I chat with a great many of them just like I do on the net. But it took at least 3 or 4 years to be able to do that.

I don't like to go anywhere there are a lot of people. This weekend is a treat. We are going to the camp grounds, people yes, our own camp site yes lol.

newbie07 - glad to have you! =)

so i really did go into town friday, and i honestly had a really good time! it's ridiculous to be so proud of myself for going out with my friends on a friday night... ah life!

It’s not silly at all to be proud of yourself, especially not considering it was something you were a little (or a lot) nervous about. I am glad you had a good time, though.

iris
I am so proud of you and you should be proud of your self and tickled that you did it. Many people don't understand how hard that can be to do.

crowds give me anxiety in general but i often find myself staying home to eat or staying home because ive over eaten and dont want anyone to see me "fat."