Wow I can relate with nearly everything everybody has said. This is the first time that I've been able to stick to a "diet" for over a month and I am astounded and I realised its because the last few times I have been trying to rush it off of me. I went two weeks eating just noodles... night and day, by the second week if I saw another pack of noodles I would have hung myself with them (lol... i'm not being serious i promise). I would hit the gym obsessively every chance I got between classes, and of course if after a week or two I hadn't lost 20 pounds I would give up and start eating crap again. Even now, although I have started to lose 1-2 pounds a week and I'm doing so healthily that crazy little bug wants me to start restricting go on a total gym spree and I have to calm it down... and drink loads of water so I can drown it.
Although its an extremely tedious journey it seems to actually be working for me, also before I would be wracked with guilt if I had a burger or fries... I wouldn't share the fact that I felt guilty but it was there. Now... If I want a burger and fries I go right into the kitchen stick them in the oven and then eat them enjoying every bite. The beauty of it all, is that I would have been able to eat that every day now I can manage it maybe one a fortnight. Also the reason why I am loving this slow weightloss is the difference I see in myself - everything is running smoothly, my teeth are becoming whiter, and my hair shinier, my skin has become clearer and I'm not as tired all the time. When I used to fad-diet at every given moment I was exhausted all the time, totally drained, my teeth and hair would be dull, my skin would become grey - it was horrible... and more importantly I would jump off of it and then be naughty and feel guilty again.

the best part of all of this... that i've said above is
I dont feel guilty anymore!!!!

Look at this the other way------ if you had waited another year you wouldn't even be down to the weight you are at now!!!
So, you can look at this as being one year behind or one year up .
At least you started when you did, and started at all!!!

I feel your pain, I am so impatient and get so discouraged when it doesn't happen all at once. When we moved into our current house a year-and-a-half ago, it needed a lot of work inside and out. We said we'd take it slowly, not get overwhelmed or feel the need to do it all at once. Famous last words. We were done renovating the entire house before the year was out. I'm the kind of person who wants to see results NOW, and with weight-loss it's not that easy.

But just think of the difference between having it handed to you (as in making a wish and waking up thin) and working so hard for it. You can be so proud of this accomplishment! And you've lost so much weight so far, Pinupdreams, that you should be proud already and you should know that you CAN reach your goal. You're awesome!