So, I've had an okay couple of days. I was really getting frustrated with the fact that I could not figure out how to get exercise into my day. And then, my lower back got torqued. Not even really sure how it happened, I woke up with it. I think it's a nursing injury.
It feels like a strain and I know it's all because I have absolutey no abdomninal strength. Not that I'm happy about all this, but it's been a big motivator to get some strength building into my day. Can't say that I've been stellar at it but I've incorporated more tummy exercises and kegals, at least. As far as cardio, well, I had coffee yesterday, which I never do, and I was about to sell my children come 2 PM. It just makes me too cranky. So I borrowed my neighbor's double stroller and threw them both in and walked around the neighborhood, zig-zagging up and down the streets to take advantage of the small incline that runs through our neighborhood. They both fell asleep, but Clara was really cold and cranky when she woke up. I have to figure out how to keep her warm and happy because I'm not likely to stick with this if she's always whining. I'm also really sore in one hip, which keeps happening, but I think the answer to that is to keep moving.
I'm still on the fence about joining a gym, or should I say, switching, because I actually do belong to one, I just never go. I thought the community center was going to be a good option, but they don't have childcare in the afternoon. The mornings my 3 yo is home I want to spend with her, the mornings she's at preschool I need to work. So I'm still not sure how to fit this in. I think I'm going to still just make due with trying to workout at home. It just takes less time, which is the thing that's in shortest supply.
As you can see, I'm still a little cranky about all this. I'm a little cranky in general. Dh and I are okay, but working through some old things with a counselor, who is less than talented (he actually said last night that my way of approaching things is "hormonal"). So my head is full of all that. Working at home is just not working for me anymore and I just want to be done with my projects so I can just be done, for at least the summer.
Sorry for the gigantic vent. I'm just not used to feeling so out of control and settling all the time. I know it's just a season in my life, I've seen lots of friends go through the same thing, I just have to keep reminding myself that it won't always be like this. And I will miss these days when they're gone.
I hope you're all feeling strong and centered. I can't tell you how happy I am that we're all back together. It's a really beautiful thing. Thank you all for being here!


Last week when I read Abs note about spring I was pretty sure we were skipping winter here but it arrived over the weekend. I don't mind for now. It is very cold and I still went on my morning walk so I must be getting used to it!
I think I'm truley ready for this again.