Hey guys! I'm so glad that I found this thread. This is my story too, and I'm realizing that I really can't do this on my own. I've yoyo'd more times than I want to count, and I'm ready to be done with that. (+1 for a year of frustration and apathy.)
I hit my max weight at 278 about 8 years ago, at age 26. I had a life event that resulted in a period of anxiety, and the only thing that made the shaking go away was exercising. Even after the anxiety went away (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy 4tw), since I'd gotten started losing weight, I felt amazing and kept the momentum going. I took a nutrition class and began to balance my diet and count calories. I did reasonably well with eating, and though I really am not good at keeping up with exercising, I did it intermittently. Despite some mild yoyo'ing. I slowly (~ 4 years) made my way down to 176 lbs, which was lower than I'd been in 15 years.
102 lb weight loss - what an awesome accomplishment! That was 4 years ago. Then I started medical school, and stress/exhaustion set in, and I have done some absolutely ridiculous yoyo'ing over the last 4 years. It seems to depend on what rotation I'm on, what time of year, and how much time I have free... I go from letting things go to getting into a great pattern, and back to letting things go. I've made some great changes in the past that have worked, but then my schedule or work load change, and I so easily stay off the horse once I fall. But I absolutely am not able to stay on the horse without giving in now and then. I don't see my schedule changing in the foreseeable future. So I'm the one that needs to change.
I think simply coming here and talking it through with people, listening to your stories, will be a huge portion of what makes it work this time. It will help keep it in my mind that YES it matters a lot to me that I keep up with this, NO I am not alone in my struggles, YES it's possible to be successful, and NO I don't ever want to go back down that slippery slope.
I have some great motivations (besides my own health and feeling good and fitting in clothes etc, I don't want to be an obese doctor, and my classmates are all healthy and it's embarrassing to be chubby) but it's hard to keep that in the front of my mind when I'm hungry/eating. It's actually the opposite - it's as if everything else fades once I'm eating. I'm great at convincing myself that I'll eat less later to make up for it, or I'll exercise to cover the calories. But I've developed into a really good self-liar, still gullible for my own lofty intentions.
Anyhow, I just wanted to introduce myself! I'll be catching up on old posts to see how things have gone for you guys, and I plan to be around more from here on out!
