Staccie- I am so sorry. I know the feeling and I could work out too. Salad is not going to cut it. I am so hungry. I just want something filling. Mashed potatoes? lol. NO. No food!! Sorry about your day. We need to turn this bus around!

Pammy- You can do it! I would give anything to be tall and lean! I can lose all the weight I want but I can never grow tall =( lol. about the hurricanes though!

Aj- Isnt it funny that we always want what we cant have? Rather it be shorter or taller or a larger or smaller chest? Why are we programed to hate our selfs in one way or another?

I went to the gym. Somehow I managed to argue with my fat personality and the skinny personality won.

Anyway, I signed up for a trainer tonight. Once a week for a few months. I don't need a trainer to learn how to work out but I think I really need someone to help guide me. I found before that I really responded to results. So every Sunday I will get weighed, measured and trained by the trainer. Although it may not be right, when I feel accountable to someone and could get into trouble or disappoint someone, I tend to do better at everything. I must have gotten the strap in school a lot They still did that back in the days I feel accountable to my friends and family, but somehow a trainer has always bred a lot of success for me. And if that is what it takes, well I am willing to do anything right now to just get me going.

He's one the best at the club and I've chatted to him a few times so I hopeful about this.

AJ - thanks for the sympathy and back at ya What did you end up eating? I'm on the bus and picking you up tomorrow morning (I wish in reality!).

Pam - oh so true, we always want what we dont' have. I want little boobs, girls with little boobs want mine (why I have no idea), I wish I straight hair and I have curly, blah blah I am convinced we are like this because of the pressure society puts on women to look a certain way. It breeds a sense of 'never good enough' - even women who are so beautiful always think someone is more pretty. Those people that honestly say they love themselves, I always wonder if that is true (and if so, good for them). And now with surgery, you can look almost anyway you want. How the world has changed...

Well I have hours of work to do so I will check in tomorrow!

Oh me you ask? What did I eat? Chinese food. Tomorrow is a new day and I have closed my mouth for the day. Good night girls.

Lindy-Hope you are feeling better and out of your funk. I am hoping to see good results with the grapefruit. You arent really hungry at the end of the day, you can eat as much as you want of meat and veggies or salad. I have the whole diet written down. I will try to pm it to you in the next couple days.

Staccie-woohoo for making with the gym and wrestling with the fat personality and winning!!!!! I would love to have a trainer. I know I could be so much further into this by now if I did. Oh and I get the old lady pucker lips sometimes with the juice.

AJ-my hubby is a butt man too and has to "check out" my pants I wear everyday, but lately it looks like I took a dump in most of them cos they are saggy. But hey that spells results to me, so thats ok. Is your back better? I had a bad binge day like that Monday(I had chinese food too), thats when I decided to do the GF diet for 12 days. Had to get over wanting to eat any and eveerything.

Pam-kids are so funny. I know how you feel being away from your bf. When my hubby and I were dating, he lived in Michigan and I lived in Alabama. It was hard but we made it work. Eventually I ended up moving here and now I want to go back to AL so so so bad. I've been here 9 years.

GF diet day 2 went well. I didnt get my walk in as planned. Had the boys most of the day and the youngest has impetigo and a sinus infection so had to keep him in. Gonna go grocery shopping tomorrow and get all my staples for the next 10 days. Really really hope I can get to 199 on this diet.

Hope everyone is having a great night.

Staccie - woohoo for the new trainer! That's a great idea - it might just give you an extra push when it comes to staying on track and I'm sure it will keep you super focused on your workouts although we all know you love weights anyway. Good for you!!

aj - sounds like your body decided it was tired of the super lo-cal diet yesterday - hope your back isn't bothering you as much. I head back to Denver today and am not even going to try to get any exercise until tomorrow.

burgundy - your loose pants comment cracked me up! Funny how looser clothes can be even less flattering sometimes!! Sounds like the gf diet is going to work for you and you'll bust right on through to onederland. When do you see your sister again? Is it soon? I can't remember.

pammy - the whole self-critical thing is a major bummer, I agree! There must be one thing about yourself that you really like though - what is it? Seems like someone as pretty as you would have lots to choose from!

Off to dye my roots and to get going on property visits for the day. Hope you all have a good one!

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Good Morning girls. Not sure what is so good about it though (not a morning person)

I am on day 3 of the lemonade diet master cleanse thingy. Well kinda. I started in the middle of the day on day 1. But all I had that day was raisin bran for breakfast and a salad of just lettuce for lunch. The rest of the day it was just the lemonade. Last night though, I had to go to our friends parents house and have spagetti. I didn't want to, but we have cancelled on them a few times recently and they get quite offended, so I had to go. They are the type of people who make TONS of food and then expect you to eat TONS. Well I just had salad, half a plate of spagetti and 1 piece of garlic bread. I am back to the lemonade this morning.

I had the courage to get on the scale this morning and have a peek. It said 295. Since the highest weight I saw on the scale was like 300.4...I'm pretty happy with that. I'm not looking again until Sunday though.

Now on to you guys:

Dance: Lol. Dye your roots??? You mean your not a natural redhead? I would have NEVER known. You have the complection of a redhead.

Staccie: I'm proud of you for taking a step that you know works (getting a trainer). Plus, even more proud of you beating your fat personality with the skinny one.

Lindy: Hope today is a better day and you are out of your funk.

Burgandy: I toooootally know about the poop in the pants look. I hate it!!! I sure hope you break through to onederland with these 12 days. I wish I could too. HAHA! We know that's not gonna happen.

AJ: I wish you the best of luck in not allowing food to get the best of you today. Oh and the pictures were awesome! The is such a big difference with 20 lbs. I have lost 60...and really when I look at pictures I can only tell in my face and neck...nowhere else.

Anyone I missed: Hope you have a great day of skinny thoughts.

Good morning everyone!

Lindy - Here is something to start your day with:

Dance - travel days always suck for me no matter how I eat or how active I am so you might as well take the day off - tomorrow is another day.

Staccie - good for your skinny personality kicking butt and scheduling a trainer. You are definitely driving the bus today!

AJ - today will be better. Maybe you can find a nice balanced day food wise. I hate how badly the sodium affects me with Chinese food.

Tiff - it is so good that you are back. It sounds like you really did well last night at the spaghetti dinner.

Burgundy - saggy pants are a GOOD thing! You will be busting into the 190's before the month is out.


I am still waiting for my new exercise DVD's to arrive and am getting to the point where they no longer seem exciting.

Thursday's are a tough day for me exercise wise. I have been going to the store on Thursday mornings before work to take advantage of their $10 off of $50 worth of groceries. So not much of a workout in the morning. Then right after work I run Harry out to his agility lesson, by the time I get home it is cold and dark and I don't feel like exercising. Last week hubby was home and was kind enough to walk with me. I could use some suggestions that don't involve walking backwards on the treadmill. Maybe my aforementioned Disney exercise plan should be set into motion for Thursday evenings.

I have been trying to hit this hard since I started last Monday so that I could see the results to keep me motivated. I keep thinking about those Biggest Loser people and how they work out a ridiculous amount of hours a day while they are at the ranch to drop those large numbers. So I am just trying to get more exercise in than I usually would when starting a diet. Hence I have been starting most of my days with 20 minutes on the treadmill. Then in the evening I try to do another 30-45 minutes of cardio. I would love to do more but time does not always allow for it.


KICKing vibes for a successful day out to everyone - please KICK them back.

I am really feeling over this. Not you guys just the whole dieting thing. I feel so beat. I am still 155/156 and I am just over it. What do I do?

Sorry girls.. but I'm having a pity party for myself and just need to vent. Please disregard. I just found out that my husband will not be coming home for thanksgiving and possibly not christmas either. They were taken away from him.. he has no priveleges now. He got into a fight the other day apparently. Well. he says some guy jumped on him. He got him off of him.. didn't hit him. but held him until the sargeants came over. But they both got in trouble. So.. now I don't get to see him and we're out a lot of $ for plane tickets. I'm pretty miserable right now and have nothing to look forward to now. At least I don't feel like binging. I feel more like starving. I have no appetite and feel sick. On top of that.. I have to go to work tonight. So.. this day officially sucks. Thanks for letting me vent.

Neesy I am so sorry! The military really is effed up. They told my brother he couldn't come to my wedding because of training and then told him two days before he could come. Then there was a time when he was suppose to come home for 4 weeks pre deployment and because of one thing he didn't have they wouldn't let him leave... THAT DAY. They are really messed up. Also deployments suck. They say _ months but it always extends =( I am so sorry you are having to go through it. They first year and half is the hardest. Then its a race to be done. I hope your day gets manageable. **HUGS**

Was 3FC down for a few hours or was that just my computer?

Neesy, that is absolutely awful. I really hope you have plenty of family around to spend the holidays with, but I sure know that is nothing like having your husband there. I am so sad for you because I know how much you were looking forward to having him to yourself. Just don't starve yourself girl, that won't solve anything. Even if you don't feel like eating make sure you are getting some nutrients in that body! Come vent all you need to.

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I am pasting the below because I tried to post it earlier but 3FC froze up on me.

So I was just thinking...I put on between 10-15 lbs in the past few months. I don't know if anyone else does this when they start to gain, but I avoid the clothes that I know have less give in them. For instance, today I am wearing a pair of pants that I haven't worn for several weeks because they fit PERFECT when I was 285-290, but they don't really get bigger throughout the day like most of my pants and they are driving me crazy today! They fit decent when I am standing up, but when I sit down (pretty much the whole day) they are tight on my thighs and waist. I have not been wearing them to further my denial. I guess subconciously, it's ok to not diet if my clothes still fit. But that turns into, it's ok not to diet if SOME of my clothes still fit. Then that turns into, I have to go shopping anyways because I need new clothes, whatever if they're a size biggger...this store's clothes must run small...oh the lies I tell myself.

Does that make sense??? This whole post is because my pants are tight today.

THE END

Dance-I get to see my older sister, mom and niece in December. We are going down for 2 weeks for christmas and new years. I really would love to be at 193 by then, that would put me at my halfway mark.

Tiff-you are another brave one trying the master cleanse. I dont know if I could do that one. Good luck. I hope I get to the 1's too!!!! Yea when I was 236 I have a few pair of pants that I always stayed away from. I hate when they are tight in the waist and are uncomfortable all day.

Popcorn-making small changes where you can will help and you have already done that. You will start to see results. good vibes for you too

AJ-please dont give, you are so close. I know you can do it. I was on a plateau and wanted to give up, so I ate and ate on Monday. Tuesday I decided that was enough so I started the grapefruit thing. Is there a certain plan that has worked well in the past that you could try again to get the scale moving. Even though the scale isnt moving, the inches are def coming off, just take a look at those pictures again.

Got some groceries today, not everything I needed. Went to the amish store. Love that place. Got lots there. Day 3 is going good. Gonna try to get a workout in tonight. Will have my niece and nephews here tomorrow so their mom can go xmas shopping. 40 days til I go to AL, so I need to stay on track and lose 12 lbs. Hope I am not shooting for a number that is not obtainable for me. We'll see.

AHHHHHHH-- DARN 3FC. It was down all day and I kept thinking it was my work comp. then I came home for lunch and sure enough, it was still down, lol. God forbid! Anyway, not the best of days, so let me vent. I started out ok, 2 cookies, 4 egg whites and 3 pieces of turkey bacon, which put me at 400 calories, then I had a handful of almonds-150, then I ate a whole footlong sub - 700 flippin calories! a pepsi - 150 calories, then I had 2 pumpkin pie mcdonalds things....grrr...Im gonna say like 600 calories, so Im already at 2000 calories without dinner. Good grief! In addition, I havent hopped on the scale in a week but clothes are feeling tight...uh-oh, time to rope this back in!

AJ- dont give up. You and I should try to do this together! We are both slipping up pretty bad these days, wanna be each others accountability buddy?

Neesy - so sorry to hear about your hubby! Im glad to hear you didnt binge, big props for that.

Im sorry Im not commenting on everyone else, its so late in the day and dont have a lot of time now because I have to wrap up some things. Try to stay skinny tonight girls, Ill touch base with you tomorrow.