Hi just a quickie, I'm still really ill, weigh in today 7lbs SINCE TUESDAY!!!! I feel shaky, weak and awful. Thank you for the well-wishes I will be back to posting 'properly', hopefully, on Monday, when the boys should be well enough for school- as long as I'm up to taking them!!
xxxxxxsharon

Morning everyone!!

Well today is cheat day... it is also weigh in day. I am happy to report that I am down 2 more lbs which makes 8 for january so far. I am excited! Its the first time that I have been able to drop any weight in a long time now. Of course it is weight that I put back ON but thats beside the point

I guess the moral of my story is that I am now back to exercising. It really is the one thing that makes all the difference to me. So far this week I exercised for a total of 5 hours. Hoping to get another hour in today but I am fighting a migraine that is coming on. I'm going to go wake steve and send him to the pharmacy to pick up my pills. I have a new script that had to be "made" for me. I'm hoping they work wonderfully!! I hate migraines.

Anyhoo,
Welcome back to Elaine who I see posting again....
I'm not sure if I remembered to Welcome Vanessa either... sorry!
Sharon~ Hope you are feeling better....

ugh, belly is floppin around now... I think I'll go back to bed. Another sign of a doosey of a migraine....

Later chickies
Brenda

Good Morning all,

Well, this post is soooo hard for me to write. I am so sad. I feel like a total looser and not in the weight loss looser good way. I went back to weight watchers for the first time since October and I am the fatest I have ever been in my life as far as I know. I am so sad. I have been trying so hard. I have been exercising so oooooo much. Being totally honest with myself I haven't been counting my points. I thought i was doing a good job of it. I guess not. So, starting today anything that passes my lips, good or bad gets written down and tracked. I am just sick. If someone rich and famous would come up to me right now and offer to give me weight loss surgery for free I would jump on it. I am so scared. I am really scared that I can't do this. I was so hopeful last week. My rings really are looser. My hubby says that my behind is tighter. The only thing I can think happened is that since October I have been steadily gaining and starting when I started exercising and watching what I ate maybe I lost some since then. I just don't know. I feel like giving up. I feel like I am just going to die after all this effort it doesn't matter anyway. So sorry to be a downer but you guys are so important to me and your opinions matter to me so much. I just am at a loss.

Hope you are all having wonderful days.

Blessings,
Annie

Hi All,

I am late posting today because we all went to town this morning. Primarily we went for some clothes for the girls but we also had lunch out, plus a coffee in Starbucks and we didn't get home til about 4.30. I am just checking in now and then it's off for Saturday night TV viewing.

Kymberly - it's wonderful to hear how motivated you are. Hopefully you will feel like that most of the time, but when you do have days when you aren't so motivated just remind yourself of all the reasons you are changing your life and I am sure that motivation will come rushing back.

Chocolate is a big downfall of mine too, but funnily enough when I am dieting I stop craving things like that and I really want savoury things.

Patti - considering you can't stand pain you sure manage to push yourself through it when you exercise. You are better than me, if I am in pain I try not to do anything that will make me feel it more. I'm a wuss

Annie - NO NO NO NO. I don't believe it, I am so sorry you didn't see a loss at WW. BUT don't feel like a loser, you aren't! You may not have seen results on the scales, but you have been changing your life style, you have been preparing for the battle with your weight, exercising, toning that butt of yours, nice of Joel to notice it's tighter and you should be proud of the changes you have made. Dieting is more than just what the scales say, so please don't lose heart. I KNOW you can lose the weight Annie, you are so determined, don't give up now

Charlene - Ugly Betty has only just started over here, last night was it's second show of the first series. I really am enjoying it a lot, and could scratch the eyes out of all those shallow cows that are so horrible to Betty

Sharon - surely you still don't think what you have is just a virus, wouldn't it be gone by now, you definitely should be feeling a bit better at least. Am I going to have to start nagging you to go to the doctors just like I do with Patti

Brenda - on the 2 lbs lost, that is fantastic news. Not so fantastic that you feel a migraine coming on, I hope your meds will get it under control before it gets too nasty. I hate hate hate migraines. I get the loss of focus, the flashy lights in front of my eyes, the severe headache and the nausea and vomiting. Mega horrid.

Ok gotta go now, but I'll be back later tonight,

Hugs,

Ammi

Annie
I am at work and just read your post and felt like i had to post. I am so sorry you are feeling this way. Please dont give up! I am going to share this story with you that i havent told anyone because i was too mad at myself.
You see when we started this wt loss contest at work, i was under the false impression that i weighed about 220, WRONG!! at my initial weigh in, i was 247, and the sad part is, i had actually lost a few pounds before i started. My point , annie , is please dont feel alone, we all have been there, are there now, or may be there in the future. I have confidence and faith that you can do it, and you can email or instant message me anytime. You are worth every good thing you do to improve your life, and even though we dont really know each other, you are my friend
I will be thinking of you, annie

Annie, I started over 400 too. You have to tell yourself... I am the most important thing and without what you DO you have no life. Think of all the positives you have been doing.

You have busted your butt exercising like a crazy woman. Your stamina is building. Your heart is thanking you.

You have been watching what you eat. You may not have been weighing your food or keeping strict journals but most of it was healthy nutrional food. That is more than you could say before. Your body is getting the nutrients you need. Now it may be time just to watch the amounts a little closer.

You have been such a positive person. You were happy BEFORE you weighed in. The scale lies. You ARE healthier than you were before. You ARE happier than you were before. You are toning your body. Clothes will FIT better. You ARE an inspiration to some of us here and YOU are the reason that we get up off our butts and exercise some days. We KNOW you would be behind us kicking our butts if we didn't

My heart aches knowing that you feel like giving up. That is the only way that we will lose this battle. Please don't get discouraged my dear Annie. Things will start to show on the scale.

Wish I could give you a big hug but this will have to do...

Brenda

Hi all, I am new to this and I wanted to say Hello. I have done WW before and lost 25 pounds, fell off and now I am ready to get back on! I am looking foward to all of the advice and support. I have been doing a lot of reading of the site and I think this will be fun! Hope to chat soon!

Cristie
We are happy to have you. I'm sure you will enjoy it here. There is lots of support and sharing. Along with a few laughs

Brenda

Hey everyone-

ELAINE~Welcome back!

AMMI~Yeah I am sure I proably lost at least more water weight maybe. I love that show ugly betty!I missed the start of the show. I wish I could watch free episodes online but it tells me I am out of the United States. I guess I am just way to up north!

PATTI~I hope you find out something from the doctor! Sorry you are in so much pain hun!

ANNIE~We will for sure have to meet up!

KYMBERLY~Yeah the computer issues are driving me nuts. But only a few more weeks of that! We will be in spokane soon. Sounds like you are doing great with OP! WTG!

SHARON~I hope you get well soon!

BRENDA~Congrats on you loss! WTG on getting the exercise in. I can't wait to get back on a normal schedule and work out on actual equipment! And I hope that migraine goes away soon!

CRISTIE~WELCOME! Glad you joined!

ANNIE~ I am so sorry hun. But like everyone else has said you have been doing so awesome! Don't give up you can do this! We all can do this! You have been building up stamina and doing awesome with your workouts! Hang in there hun things will get better.

Well I need to go sort through more stuff. I hope you all have a good day!

ANNIE LETS MAK4E A DEAL LETS RECOMMITT OURSELVES TOGETHER TO THIS WEIGHT LOSS WAYOF LIFE. WE HAVE BOTH COME SO FAR TO STOP NOW. IS IT A DEAL?
Thanks all for the well wishes on my leg i am hoping this past couple of days with no treadmill plus using the heatpad will help on sunday i am recommitting myself both to diet and exercise !

Annie --
Okay, you feel AWFUL. I think we all know that rock-bottom feeling. I remember it well.

Annie, I want you to use this feeling. You channel it. You make it part and parcel of your COMMITMENT to your new lifestyle.

You have already begun it, after all!

But you CANNOT let that number on the scale define you. MOTIVATE you, sure? Piss you off? Fine. But IT DOES NOT DEFINE YOU.

You don't have to go crazy -- you know, eat 500 cals a day and exercise for 5 hours. But you are going to re-commit to yourself.

WE LOVE YOU ANNIE.

I love your plan to write down everything you eat. Need any help getting started??

You are not a loser, hun, you are one very determined chickie. Okay?????

Annie-Please don’t give up. I’ve given up before, and it is a walking death, in my case at the time a laying in bed death. I knew that I would never be different. I had even begun to dream about myself in the wheelchair. Before, I could at least walk and run and jump and climb in my dreams. I had quit hoping or praying for a change. Then one morning, out of the blue, I woke up not only convinced that I could get better, but sure that I was going to. Some people have miraculous healings of their body. I had a healing of my spirit. I’m firmly convinced that it was in answer to a prayer, just not to my prayer. I had long ago quit praying for help. I believe when my husband prayed for the Lord to bring him a wife, that his prayer healed my soul so that I could heal my body before he even knew my name. I started to try to walk on my own that very day. I’ve stumbled so many times, including today, but I have such a huge debt to repay, that I just have to get back up, dust myself off, and try again. The Lord is not asking you to succeed, or to be perfect, but to trust in him and simply try. I’ve had an 18 month hiatus, a 3 month plateau, and another 6 month hiatus, but I just keep trying. I may never reach my goal weight, I may never be fit again, but I will die healthier and happier than I used to be. Scales are not perfect, especially at our size, so don’t despair. You may need to really keep track of what you are eating, and increase your calories for the amount of exercise you are doing. That’s what I had to do when I started water aerobics. You burn more calories at your size with a good burp than a 100 lb. woman does during a marathon. Look at us as your Simon of Cyrene. When it gets too heavy, we will help carry you. When your knees are weak, our shoulders are strong.

Oh Annie! I was just popping in while trying NOT to do office work and read your post. I can't offer any more wisdom than the other ladies here...but I agree with every word they've said. Please listen to them, especially Catherine - you KNOW she knows exactly what she's taking about. Don't give up. Don't feel bad about yourself. You have done wonderful things in the time I've known you when it comes to your exercise and fitness. How long could you exercise when you started? 2 minutes? 5 minutes? How long can you go now? Those victorys have to be recognized and savored when the scale is causing you sadness. Hold on and keep going! You can get there and we'll do whatever you need us to to help!