) Elijah has a real senstive tummy - I'm down to 1 soda a day.. some days none. I was drinking up towards 3 a day (reg soda!!) just to help with my stress. But that wasn't helping poor Eli. The kid wasn't pooping!Some days are good with him but others I actually ask myself what made me think I could handle 2 children? Right now it's 4 am - this was Eli's first feeding.. one feeding a night... I can handle that.
Thanks for letting me ramble.
Are things ever going to be normal again - where I can kind of diet? am I ever going to want to?

I think it's normal. Congratulations on continuing to nurse! It gets easier as it goes along, I promise.
I distinctly remember standing in Babies R Us looking at this huge display of bottle nipples going "Hmm, which of these looks like my nipple?"