254.6!!!!!!
Not my official weigh in, as those come on Mondays, but...
I am feeling pretty dang awesome today
OH!!! AND I busted myself naked infront of the full length mirror in the bathroom....yeah yeah yeah...my body sucks....but DANG! My legs look GREAT! Now I know where I have been losing all my weight
And all that 30DS and cardio I've been doing has really been sculpting them. I spend a good 15 minutes just staring at them and touching them. I am so pathetic.
zGirl21 - cheers to you, know you can do this!
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The questions for some of us: a.) are you going to count out 20 chips and close the bag, and put it away? b.) Will those 20 chips lead to say a handful of M & M's? c.) the day after, does it become easier to grab another 20 chips instead of making green beans ? d.) within in a couple days, do I throw up my hands and say "screw it"?
irish - you hit it right on the head. I wasn't always this big. I used to clock in at 161. Sure, everything SAID I was slightly overweight, but I was in a size 6/8 and everyone used to comment I looked too skinny. I was very athletic, I was a lacto/ovo vegatarian, and I never had to worry about calories, but I did always look at the package and seriously count everything out. Then I was in a car crash. A very bad one. It totally messed my left knee up and I had to have repeat surgery on it. I went from a very active lifestyle to a very seditary one over night and stayed that way for years because of the pain. To make matters worse, I was a vegatarian growing up in a family of carnivores. No one knew the proper balance my body needed, not even me. One day, I tested borderline anemic. I was told it was a protein deficency and to take in more protein. NO ONE, not even the doctor, mentioned alternatives to boost my protein. I just assumed it meant to eat meat. Talk about young and stupid. It took me almost a year to not get sick every time I ate because meat was so gross to me, or because it just didn't sit well as I had NEVER eaten it before. At the same time, meat packed on OVER A HUNDRED POUNDS in about a year. That, combined with little activity, I went from fit to whale in about 16 months.
I got to the point that I stopped caring. I figured, what was one more chip, or what was the point anymore.
It seriously took me almost reaching 300 pounds and my daughter to shake me out of a nearly decade old funk. I am ashamed I got here. By god, I WILL not stay here the rest of my life. I know I will always have knee problems. I know I will always have asthama (had it when I was fit). But I do not have to live as a super obese woman so depressed and filled with self loathing the rest of my life. I WILL be healthy again. I slowly am cutting meat out of my diet again. I never really enjoyed meat, so it isn't all that hard, but it is hard to make two meals a night, as my family likes meat. Work in progress. WS is vegatarian, the "meat" is basically seitan, so it has helped me move towards a meat free lifestyle again. I WILL be fit again. I went from barely being able to walk up my stairs to over an hour of exercise almost every night. I WILL do this. And I am so very happy I have you and everyone here