I'm an idiot. I know better than to drink and think that my thinking will remain sound. Last night at the 4th of July get together I planned on having one beer. I even brought it with me so that I would have the kind that I like. After the beer, another friend showed up with margaritas. Unfortunately, the beer answered for me and I had a couple margaritas. At this point, the only thing keeping me from climbing into the trays of brownies and FOUR different kinds of ice cream was my abstinence. I knew what my abstinence definition was, and it has become a law written in stone in my heart. Thank God I didn't have to "think" about it.

My booze infested thoughts told me, "It's okay. Just drink your carbs and you'll still be in your food plan." Yeah...right. With a belly full of tequila, I was desperate for something absorbant to swallow and soak it up. Instead I had another burger patty, and suffered the acidic pain of no bun... It didn't feel good.

And to top it off...I said stupid things, laughed too loud, and made a general fool of myself. Oy vey. Will I ever grow up?

we all make that mistake but you relaize it now and you will move on from it and remember this at the next party...you are only human dont b so hard on yourself!!!

Oh, Marny, I'm sorry... Mizz is right, though... you're only human, and you're never going to be perfect. (sorry to disappoint you, hon. I know we're all striving for it, however... heh heh)
You know you overindulged, and you even had the strength to get a grip on your eating! I think that's huge.

Thanks guys. I'm feeling much better about the whole situation. I talked with my therapist and my sponsor about it. I came to some good conclusions.

Marny, I am sorry that you had a difficult time, but I am glad that you were able to pick it back up and keep going! You know what they say -- well darn it, I can't remember exactly how it goes, but something along the lines of "Failure is not falling -- it is refusing to get back up once you have fallen"! You got right back up! Yah Marny!

My husband keeps asking me to go to concerts with him. Rock concerts just aren't a safe place for me right now. Too many distractions from my program: booze, food, people who are only into looking good, wordly focus etc. So, I told him that, and prompted him to go with a friend. He said okay, but I know he's going to ask me to go to the next one that he hears about. Maybe one day I'll be ready to go--just not now.

I know how you feel, I find socialising and staying abstinent very difficult. There's just not that many safe activities at night that don't involve food. Well besides the movies.