treading water
 

Today I'm keeping my head above water. My emotions are running high, and my only goal is to keep my abstinence. I would really like to climb into the refrigerator and close the door.

I was not kind to my sponsor yesterday. I dearly love her, and have now added her to the ranks of all the other people I care deeply for, but can't keep my mouth shut around. I thought that I had learned how to treat others with kindness, love, and compassion. Apparently I was giving myself too much credit, and got sloppy. I wish I could do yesterday over again.

Thankfully, by the grace of God, my sponsor loves me too, and was willing to honestly communicate with me.

I'm amazed at how much she values me, and at the same time, I feel like a really rotten person.

Like everything else, both good and bad, I'm going to turn this over to God's care.

Marny

I can relate i have a sharp tongue at time too. It is really something i am working on. It seems the more stressed i am, the more i cant restrain...food or attitude. Just know it is a new day.

Stacy--
Thanks for the support. I'm feeling better than I did this morning. I've had some time to think more about what amends I needed to make with her. I was able to talk to her tonight, and I feel better about that.

Some good has come from this. I've been made dramatically aware of how my teasing can affect others. I have good reason to work on this character defect. So, I'm thankful for learning. Too bad learning is painful sometimes.

Marny