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hi. this is my first post on here and well... here i go.
When i was younger I suffered from multiple eating disorders. I would switch back and forth from starving myself, to binging and purging. then when my eating was normal, I would excersize obsessively to the point of danger to my health.
I recovered, but Now my weight has gone crazy from a medication I was on, and stress of getting married and starting on my own. ((ps- never try the birth control depo vera it makes you gain like ****.))
So, I'm trying to loose this all the healthy way. Its an uphill battle, I'll be excersizing and I'll take it to an extreme. I start at 200 sit ups and then i say i can do 200 more, then 200 more, and I'll run for 3 miles and say hey why not three more, and I'll do a work out tape and say one more time one more time....
Its crazy, I obsess with the calories and I concentrate on them way too much. I calculate how much it would take to burn twice the amount of calories I took in.
Then i realize what I've done, i freak out and I binge and purge. I do that for a couple days. realize my mistake and then i starve for a week or two. then i decide to be healthy and I start the whole mess over again.
so i'm here looking for support. I'm afraid of falling into the hole all over again and I'm just hoping to find some support here.
thanks.

May I offer a comment? Two hundred sit-ups aren't really an effective exercise. Sure, it burns calories, but if you can do 200 situps the right way, then I'll nominate you for Ms. Olympia.

One thing that might help you normalize is to start learning more about the science of exercise, what's effective and what's not. Along the way you can pick up some information about metabolism, how extremes can actually cause more weight problems in the long run. There are a lot of good articles on the site Stumptuous.com, but you might start with these:

http://www.stumptuous.com/cms/displayarticle.php?aid=37
http://www.stumptuous.com/cms/displayarticle.php?aid=21

Good luck. Aim for moderation in all things. Consider OA or counseling if your all-or-nothing thinking continues to get the better of you.

Thylacine,

I hope this forum helps inspire you to take good care of your body and adjust your weight in a healthy way.

I second funniegrrl's recommendation for stumptuous.com, there is a LOT of great info at that site.

Also, for the record, I was on Depo Provera for about two years and it didn't affect my weight at all. I think it all depends on individual body chemistry. The important thing is knowing what works for you.

good luck!

Hey Thylacine-

Welcome to the OA board. Have you had a chance to visit www.oa.org?

We learn through OA that WE cannot control our disease of compulsive overeating. It is only through accepting and using the help of God, program, working the steps, and our sponsors that we can sanely live.

If WE could do it ourselves, we would have been successful with diets and exercise by now.