ugh this is like the third time I've typed this lol.
So in the last two weeks I have lost a total of 7lbs. I started at 255
*back in high school I weighed 270, and lost 15lb the summer before college*
shortly after the new year and my first mini goal was under 250 because I haven't been under 250 since I was 16.
And I did it! I started at 255.5 and I now weigh 247.4
Daily weigh ins used to not work for me, but they've been working lately. Every day I see those numbers go down, I get insanely happy, and it motivates me to be good all day.
But here's the surprising motivation boost:
Last night I was hanging out at my friends dorm. When I was leaving, I was walking down the hall and I saw that the last dorm on the right was open... a guy walked out and said to me "You are gorgeous" I of course stuttered and said thank you and as I left I heard him say bye bye.
I couldn't stop smiling all last night.
To the average skinny pretty girl, this would be no big deal.
To me, it is a HUGE deal. My boyfriend doesn't seem to understand this.
Some guy, who doesn't have to lie to me to be nice, told me I'm gorgeous. My family will tell me that but sometimes families just say that to make you feel better. My boyfriend will say I'm pretty, but only on occasions when I get dressed up or if I ask him how I look. But this random guy? he didn't have to say it. he didn't have to say anything. and he did and it makes me extremely happy.
now all i can think of is, if I'm "gorgeous" now, then wait till I reach my goal weight--then maybe I'll be "Drop Dead Gorgeous" or even beautiful or sexy. And despite all my other reasons, this is probably the biggest one--I've always thought I was hideous, but maybe this weight loss will give me what I need.