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Originally Posted by kccross
The past few days I have been so far off program. Stress, anger and pain induced. When I got my period I knew I was at risk of going off program, but then my soon to be ex-husband tells me he is moving in with the woman I thought he was having an affair with when he first left. They are 'just' room mates. Yeah and I'm 'just a bit' over-weight.
Then a very, very dear family friend was put on Hospice care and she past away Saturday night. It's been a blur of pasta, bread, cookies and candy. I just kept eating and eating trying to make myself feel something other than anger and pain.
Of course we all know that just made it worse. As far as I can tell I've put on 8 pounds. Yesterday I swore I'd get back OP, but then I got the call that Arlene had past. I still have to call my father and other sister and tell them once I find out funeral arrangements. They are both on vacation.
I'm not sure why I'm posting this here. I know I should put this behind me, do this for me, for my kids... I'm just so scared I'll revert back into my room with a bag of candy.
How do you deal with so much AND stay OP?
Be sure you keep your water with you - and drink it. I fill the 10 -12 oz plastic bottles with tap water that I've run through my Brita filter, refrigerated them in the coldest part of the frig' so they get a few ice crystals - I find I don't like to drink water unless it is really cold. As soon as I drink one up, I refill it and get another cold one.
You might also eat something other than your old 'comfort' foods. If you like celery, cucumbers, even red or green peppers or slices of lunch meat or string cheese, grab those when you are tempted to grab cookies or candy. You are so new on this journey that you have not broken the habit so substituting something that will not have the calories nor keep the craving up. You need to keep sugar out of you body for 3 to 4 days before you will stop craving it. With so many things crashing down around you, eating extra veggies or protein will not hurt as much as eating the carbs. Once life stabilizes, you can work on breaking the habits of going to food for comfort.
I am so sorry for the loss of your dear friend, and the loss of your marriage, especially with children. Do take the time to cry - watch a tearjerker movie and cry your eyes out to that if you are having a hard time crying. You are right, you need to feel something, but you mourn these losses so you can move on. We are here for you, Kathy.
jeanette