Body image/belief structure
 

In the same way that despite having 6 children I still cannot believe that a person comes out of "there", I truly have difficulty believing that I will someday (hopefully this fall) weigh less than I have since I was 12 (read, a child). I am tackling this purely on faith, or probably more accurately, because I am just action oriented; I hurt: therefore, I act to stop the hurt. Where it will end, I do not know or care, since the action itself eases the pain, as the journey of actively and consciously shedding excess fat soothes the inner pain that being obese causes.

I wax philosophic. Huh. Anyway, I was wondering if anyone else has this sort of disconnect between what is and what we're trying to achieve? I mean, I can visualize a beautiful fit body, but it just doesn't seem real to be wearing it, KWIM? Maybe I just live too much in the moment.