Can't believe I let myself slip...
Just needed a sounding board, some listeners who can relate (because my boyfriend and friends are kind of sick of hearing about my weight!)
In a nutshell - I gained 5 pounds over my goal weight - and was very discouraged and confused, as I was following the plan I was on (won't mention which one, since it sometimes invites followers of the plan to preach to me)
Found this out right before going on vacation. I thought it would motivate me to stick to (new) plan, stay on track, and keep in control of my eating. It did, for first half of trip. Then I just felt like eating, and let myself get a little looser, relax a bit on the control. Still not so bad for a few days, but then last day or two - and the looooong plane rides and layovers - weren't so pretty and I went on a binge for a few days there. Sigh. I get disgusted with myself when I do that. It's almost like I am a different person when I do it! I've been a successful at weight loss, but am still prone to binging occasionally. Now I'm afraid to weigh myself. Back on track now though. The plan is to not weigh myself until next Thursday (not this Thursday), see where I'm at, and take it from there. Hopefully by then I will even be back to my just 5 pounds over goal.
Wish me luck. I may need some support along the way. Ugh. Just feel so sad that I am back at this weight. I know it's not so much, but you guys can relate, I hope. I never thought I'd be in the 140's again. I was in the 130's for almost a year, at a weight I was so happy to have achieved. I'll be back there, as soon as I can!
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