...tomorrow I'm going to stop calorie counting
Potentially a HUGE mistake, but I can always go back if I'm not comfortable with it or I gain weight or just want to.
So my plan is pretty simple and relatively fool proof. All my meals are within a certain calorie range and I did the math and no matter how I combine them they add up to somewhere between 1600-2000 cals. I typically try to stay around 1800 during the week because I like to eat a little extra on the weekends. So if a new recipe comes along I'll tally it up to find out what portion size is appropriate, but other than that I'll just continue eating how I've been eating.
The reason I'm doing it is because I've become obsessive about it and I've been denying myself "extra" potentially needed snacks when I'm really truely hungry because they don't "fit" into the calorie range I want to hit for that day. Some days I have no issue with going 2000-2200 cals because I'm hungry but other days I feel guilty about it or feel the need to deprive myself because of a rather indulgent weekend and want to keep myself under 1800. I've been testing out this plan on the weekends and it's been going pretty well, obviously it will work a little differently durning the week. Like I said I'm not going to eat any differently and I'll still weigh and measure everything. I'll also probably join the accountability thread. The only difference will probably be the snacking, but "extra" snacks are only allowed if I'm truely hungry and I've been doing a lot of emotional work to recognize true hunger verses emotional hunger.
I guess one of the reasons that I'm scared about it is that this has been part of my life, my routine for over a year and I'm a huge control freak, part of me thinks I'll miss it. But I think the piece of mind it will give me and the release from obsessively thinking about food will be worth it.
Anyway, I really hope it works because I really want to move forward into maintenance and move out of "weight loss" mode. I hit my "offical" goal in November and I think part of me has been hoping to lose more weight, but honestly I'm done. I know my body isn't where I really want it, but I need to accept it because for one thing my face is thin enough and if I lose any more weight I don't think it will be a good thing for me. And the body image issues I have I think are pretty much only solvable with surgery.
Sorry this has turned into such a novel. I've just been going through a lot of self discovery lately and I feel like I'm finally realizing that the weight loss journey is over and that the maintenance one has begun. So anyway, wish me luck! I look forward to reporting in to the food accountability thread tomorrow!