Hi everyone,
I had a kind of bad weekend - nothing bad happened, I was just bored and ended up snacking from boredom a lot.
Warning: Rant about peer pressure ahead: When I'm being strict with my food intake the easiest thing for me to drop is alcohol, instead of, say, all sweets. But the peer pressure is awful. I've considered how my friends act, and they're not alcoholics or generally negative people. But even though they saw me lose weight, I've never been able to make them understand that I have to work to even stay where I am, and why can't I just have a few drinks on someone's birthday, or on a Saturday night, or whenever. Unless directly asked, at this point, I don't talk about my food or workouts. I've resorted to pointedly ordering my "drink" alone, and asking the bartender to put a diet soda in a cocktail glass to fake drinking alcohol (this is a very effective fake-out once you get the bartenders on your side). Saturday my BF wanted to have a drink, and I said I didn't want one (I was all for going out and socializing, mind you). He told me he just wanted me to "relax and have fun, [he] understands I've been trying to stick to my diet, but [he] just wants me to relax". I started crying b/c I interpreted that as "I'm just not fun", which he tried to assure me that wasn't what he meant, but still... and frankly on Saturday, I didn't want to drink b/c I had been overeating on snacks all afternoon and I knew I'd already way overdone it on calories. But I didn't want to admit to my BF that I'd eaten on 3 granola bars and a bunch of peanut butter that afternoon - I was embarrassed!
I don't mind being sober when I go out with a group of people, I really don't. But when people start bringing attention to my lack of drinking, that puts me in a bad mood. I have enough food/diet issues to deal with without having drinks shoved down my throat too. Gah!
Flash of insight: I can totally fool BF into thinking I'm drinking alcohol too, if I make my own drinks and just use diet soda... but we have a totally honest relationship, and I've never lied to him about anything! Is it ok to lie about this little thing?
Ok, thank you, rant over. Alcohol really didn't have anything to do with my snacking over the weekend.
Jessica, had you started to take your new medication before the knee problems started? Sorry to hear you're still having so much trouble.
Anne, glad to hear you weight loss is on track. Aww, sounds like a fun mother-daughter outing to the museum!
Amanda, yeah, when I do drink I make terrible food choices too, another reason I try not to do it often. I have a very hard time giving myself an exercise rest, too, but it's good for our bodies, right?
Lily, I'm glad to hear your hard work at the gym is paying off.
Bargoo, great job enjoying your celebrations without going overboard! That's always something to be proud of.
Hi Pat, Michele, Allison, everyone else!