When I would binge... I would always eat so fast (as if I inhaled it, it wouldnt count) :(... Either that or I would go buy a box of cookies, chew them up and then spit them into a napkin (all with the quickness and all in secret, of course). I always felt like people were grossed out when they saw me eating because I always thought they were thinking "that girl doesnt need anymore food, she has eaten enough for her entire family already" :(

I never counted anything that wasn't part of a meal or snack. Like...sneaking a french fry or a bite of cheeseburger. Or if I got extra food at a restaurant I'd not count that, either. Or I'd starve myself all week so I could have a planned binge later on. Or, the worst, making myself sick after eating too much because I was ashamed.

Bah, all in the past now! I have to focus on the now.

Edit: Reading all your secrets...a lot of those are mine, too. I'd eat so many times at fast food places in a day. I'd go to one Wendy's and then I'd have to drive across town to another. I'm trying to give up the fast food stuff now!

I would tell friends and coworkers that I was drinking a skinny latte from Starbucks when it fact it was a full fat white chocolate mocha with whipped cream.

I also occasionally tell my partner that I went to the gym when in fact I slept in late and did not change out of my PJs until noon.

Man...It makes me realize the things I did when I first tried dieting that was in secret.

I'd eat less than 1,000 calories. One time I blogged: "I aim for less than 1,000 calories. Calculators online say I can eat about 1,700 so I'm good."

I'd want to binge so bad, I'd eat a piece of something - anything - chew it, then spit it out.

I felt completely guilty when I ate. All of the time. If I ate something that put me over 1,000 calories, I'd be so angry with myself I would end up crying myself to sleep.

I ate a lot of Lean Cuisine and Healthy Choice frozen meals. I'd like the cartoon clean just to know I ate every single calorie.

I had an odd outlook on food. Either I could eat it all or I'd eat nothing at all. It's like I was a compulsive over-eater/binge eater or I'd show characteristics of being anorexic.

I've come so far from these secrets. I finally let them go.