I'm thinking that maybe dieting isn't right for me. It just doesn't fit with my lifestyle. Having to buy groceries with my own money because my mom doesn't have healthy food just is getting increasingly frustrating. Today I stepped on the scale and I weighed 162.3 pounds. I am always so upset hen I tip over 160 pounds. I was thinking of maybe going on my own plan. I'm trying to find something that's sane enough to fit in with my life Obviously other diets just have me doing way too much work and it's just a lot of stress worrying about what I can and cannot eat which causes me to cheat.
I've had to make myself "alternative dinners" at dinner time because what my mom was cooking wasn't allowed, and the salads I brought to school were always smelly and tasted disgusting from being in my locker for 5 hours.
I did well all week but I cheated big time yesterday because I was so upset that all my efforts were just causing me to gain weight, that before I knew it, food was being down my throat. I’m not really a big stress eater too so I definitely don't want to act like that again. I'm mostly eat when I’m bored which is a habit I'm slowly starting to break away from. I'm trying to stop that
Today my period came so I'm not sure if that has anything to do with me eating like a hungry cow yesterday.
Anyway I came up with my own meal plan so I wanted to know what you guys think and if it would work.
Breakfast will be oatmeal or cereal with a piece of toast and peanut butter every day.
Lunch will either be a sandwich wrap or a regular sandwich with sun chips, a cheese stick, and some carrots.
Snack- will be nuts or peanut butter on toast with a glass of skim milk
I will skip dinner for the first week but after that. Dinner will just be protein and vegetables.
At least something like this is something I KNOW I won't cheat on because it's food I want to eat anyway.
I really hope this works out. I've been exercising almost 4-5 days a week for an hour to two hours a day but I still seem to be gaining. I just hope I can figure all of this out because it's just starting to become depressing how this is getting out of control.
Bleh
(Plus I've been kind of trying to throw up my food so I definitely don't want another eating disorder again. & Yeserday I had this moment where I wanted to go out and buy diet pills. I just want to lose a few pounds.
Sorry if im getting annoying on here. I'm annoyed with myself LOL
bell rung gottah go