Hi, Grey. First of all, don't be so down on yourself. We all slip -- it's what makes us human. What's important is that you acknowledge that this is not going to help you feel better or lose weight -- and you have done so.
Secondly, it's good that you see the consequences. You went to bed just after eating ice cream, and you woke up feeling bad (physically). Having that connection -- rewards and punishments -- is what helps us get where we're going.
Third, only you can control your behaviors. If DH brings home snacks, you have a couple options:
1. eat them and then feel badly (and know that it's not going to help you reach goal)
2. ignore them, and stay focused. Ask yourself, is this snack cake worth it? If it's 200 calories, how many situps, how much walking/running, how much exercise am I willing to do to make up for it? And if I'm not, then what do I want more ... the instant gratification of how it tastes (and the guilt I'll feel afterwards), or the satisfaction of knowing you did not give in, and that you are teaching yourself a life lesson?
You might also talk to DH about it -- but for yourself. Don't blame him, or try to tell him he's overweight and shouldn't eat it. This is about YOU. So you might say, "Honey, I'm trying really hard to lose weight, and it would be so helpful if you would keep those foods out of the house while I'm learning how to better control myself around temptations like those." Don't fight, don't accuse, just appeal to him and tell him this is about what you need. The added benefit is that he might eat fewer of them as well, and lose weight -- but that's for him to decide, not you.
If that doesn't work, then you should ask him to hide those foods so they are not in your plain view, and to avoid eating them around you.
You can DO this!! I know how you feel. I was down to close to your weight, and through some depression and other things, let myself go WAY off plan, and gained much of it back within 1.5 years. Don't let yourself do that! Let me assure you ... recognizing this after 12 lbs is MUCH better than doing it after almost 90 lbs. So stay focused! We're here for you, and we believe in you!
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