Welcome Back, Jamie!!
I remember you from way back when. I did the exact same thing you did...I did great, lost 30 pounds, then gained it all and then some
So here I am again. I needed to get past my "oh my god, I gained 0.2 in 2 days, I'm a failure" attitude and realize that this is a life change, not a diet. Maybe try a 2-day fast forward or TO, then just jump right in there. Some of the oldies are gone (Katie's still here
), but there are a Whole Bunch of absolutely fantastic "newbies" now. It's good to see you back again!