Hi all. I found this web site by doing a search and I sure hope I can fit in here.
I didn't start to get fat until I was about 10 and even then I was just a little chubby. I would loose the weight and then gain it back, not trying for either. I remember getting teased a LOT picked on when I was younger for being overweight even though I look back at pictures and see that I was never more than 20 pounds overweight. In fact, when I graduated from high school I only weighed 104 lbs although I still thought I was really fat, a self-esteem problem resulting from being picked on all the time I guess.
The most I weighed before my son was born was 140, which at 5'0 was overweight for my height. I was depressed for a few years and had gained it, but in the six months before my son was conceived I had lost 20 pounds and felt great. I was finally starting to feel good ablout myself.
I gained 46 pounds with my son, and now 3 years later I still weigh the most I have ever weighed in my life: 155-160 lbs depending on the day. At only five foot tall with a small frame that's quite a bit overweight.
The only way I have ever been able to loose weight before has basically been to not eat. I can't do that now because I'm taking a prescription drug that makes me sick to my stomach if I don't eat a lot with it. I take 2 of those a day so that's 2 meals I have to eat.
I think my biggest problem is that I have a HUGH Pepsi addiction. My mom said my great grandfather used to put it in my bottles when I was a toddler so this is basically a 25+ year addiction. I've been drinking a ton of it for as long as I can remember. The only time I have quit drinking it was when I was pregnant and even then I think I had a few sips here and there and was still drinking caffeine free. I knew I should have never had that whole regular one a few months after my son was born cause I've been back on it full force since then.
I just don't know how to do it. If I don't have one first thing in the morning I get massive headaches for the rest of the day. If I go for more than several hours without one I get bad headches. I've tried switching to diet, or one, and all the others, but I can't stand them: the taste makes me want to throw up. I can't stand anything with nutrasweet or equal or even splenda in it. The taste is horrible. And I hate water. I've never liked it. I'll drink gaterade, but get tired of it pretty fast. I've tried propel, but after one I just can't drink one for a long time. I don't like whatever they put in that.
Now, I can't stand myself and I feel embarrased whenever I'm in public. I hate being this fat and it's affecting my relationships with my family. I've cut back to about one 2 liter every 2 days, with suppliments from the corner store ( 20 oz fountain pepsi).
I'd be happy to be back at 120 at this point though I really want to get down to 104 again.
Anyone else overcome this addiction?



And guess what I've noticed has jumped with my weight, my diet coke intake. In order to cut out the diet coke I had to ask myself what it was about the drink I liked so much, and once I had narrowed it down I looked for an equally satisfying substitute. I asked myself was it the caffeine, the flavor, or the texture? For me stupid as this may sound it was the bubbles
So I ended up trading in my diet coke for sparkling water and for me it really worked, plus it made my teeth look so much nicer. How about you what is it about pepsi that you like so much? Are you a bubble lover too? 
I gave up my Pepsi addiction on May 10, 1998 when I first started Weight Watchers. I decided I wasn't going to "pay" 3 points for each can when I was drinking almost a 12 pack a day. 