[Paris_n8ive_pride]

I need a friend who knows about crap i'm going through. I don't have friends normally. I have my bestfriend and, people I talk to. But, I need someone who is like me : feels alone, rough on the edges, and wants too loose this fat stuff. So be my 'buddy' I give hugs!!

[Paris_n8ive_pride]

ok no one cares thats fine maybe someone will later right now i'm going to go lift for a while to muh fav band PILLAR ahh love 'em

[Paris_n8ive_pride]

OK ok I see how it is. It's all gravy but, like muh homeboyz in Pillar say "You can't bring me down!!".I'ma keep goin' lemme know if ya wanna buddy.

[PinkyPie]

I don't know when you posted but maybe no one saw your post.

why don't you tell a little about yourself, it's a little vague about how you feel, etc (though I think we all can understand).

[Paris_n8ive_pride]

kkk, i mean kk sorry i hate when i do that

Ok, me? Um......I'm Paris. I live in Florida,USFREAKINA. I'm 14 , I love acting. Singing is also something I love. I love music (duh lol).

I live in a small dinky stupid town. Also known as exit 56 in NW Florida.
For my age I'm huge. My bestfriend wears like a size 0-2 one time 6.She's 16.
I wear a size 20-22 womens plus and XL shirts. I probably should be on happy pills but I refuse. I've been over 200 pounds sine about 4th grade.Been heavy all my life. Never get the guy I want. Of course I don't care now. I don't really want any guy. I think I know when I meet "him". I go to a First Assembly Of God. No one can tear me of my faith. I'm stuck. It's dangerous to try. I LOVE a Christian rock band called Pillar. I try to be uniqe but, also try to fit in really hard. I don't trust anyone though. Yeah I know big social problem. But, gotta give me props. I'm trying to make a 'friend' here. I'm really bad at trying to explain me. Other then all this, I'm in a thing called Fine Arts. Witch is really long to explain. And, I'm a big fan of my heritage. I'm a native american. well?

[PinkyPie]

Hi Paris

can you talk to your parents? someone at church? have you discussed with a doctor your weight issues? Maybe there are some medical explanations?

You are 14 years old - I personally think that you have a lot to look forward to. "Getting the guy" is not the most important thing right now (though I do understand, I was 14 once!), the most important thing is YOU, feeling good about yourself, becoming self-assured, making friends, talking about whatever issues are going on. Believe me, you will "get the guy" when you take care of yourself first

[Paris_n8ive_pride]

Thanks for the note. My mom is going to try to help as much as possible. My dad just.......no. We don't have much of a relationship. At the most it's 'hi' 'fine' and 'bye'. Church I don't want to get help there. I'll pray.That works. And, A docter. HAHAHA. Don't know if you know but in the stupid USA the docters blaim most weight issues on lazyness. Witch could be the problem in my case. But, I'm working on it now.

And, like I said I don't care about the 'guy'. He'll come to me oneday and, I'll know. So I don't care.

[ashory]

Hey Paris, I only joined this site recently and I've discovered it's alot of people that are past their teen years so I thought considering I'm only 17 I should say Hi or whatever! I already have a buddy but I wouldn't have a problem buddying up with more then one person and I'm sure she wouldn't have a problem even if you joined our discussions but I'd have to ask her first just out of respect! Anyhoo I'm Ash and I'm from Aussie land so if you're interested just let me know!

[Paris_n8ive_pride]

thats very thoughtful sure.....that be cool i think.... lol i sound weird sorry..i'm not used to having even a 'buddy' but i'm sure i could try
if you want you could PM me sometime and tell me about you so i could get to know who Ash is hehe