[desperate_to_lose]

Hi Rakkoon, I was not able to log in to this site for some reason . But here I am again reporting .

Well I am up to 2 1/2 miles on the treadmill now, I felt I needed to challenge myself a little more . I think I am starting to feel my clothes bit, just a bit loose in my abdomen, but I am not weighing quite yet .

So interesting that your dad is from Mx, I have never been to Jalisco but I have heard it is has some beautiful scenes. Are you going to repeat the experience? You are right people in Mx are very humble and giving. I love visiting there, and my kids enjoy it very much. I only lived there a small # of yrs but I saw the hospital where I was born, and the colonia (neighborhood) I lived in I thought it was pretty neat, I would have loved to live there longer. But I cannot complain I have acomplished alot more in the US then I would have in my own country sad to say .

So 3 things in common so far, we both want to lose weight, age (I will be 30 in Sept), we both have work experience in the medical field. How neat can that be !

About you wanting to do some sort of work, what I can say is enjoy what you are doing now, you son will grow so fast and before you know it you'll want to repeat this years all over again. My job at home is a miracle, I would have never imagined they'd offer me to work from home.

How tall are you? Reason I ask is because of your current weight,140 is already a good weight I bet you feel great.

You outnumbered me on the corn tortillas, I can only prepare the flour tortillas imagine that and trying to lose weight . My husband is also trying to lose weight so he told me "if you are going to make flour tortillas make sure it is when I am not home or getting close to the hour of coming home" .

I am so glad you are so close to your dad, I envy you in a good way. I grew up w/out my dad, but we do work on getting closer and he too is a nice man, caring and hardworking. He has his own truck driving company in New Mexico. He and my mother never married they had 2 children and went separate ways. I have alot of differences w/my mom and even though we live in the same city we kind of stay away from each other just to keep our relationship on a good level. So when we see each other we can enjoy our time togeather. Don't get me wrong I love my mother dearly she is just a bit difficult sometimes.

So do you and your husband speak spanish? Has he visited his parents countries of birth? We have a friend from El Salvador and his wife is from Mx they are very nice people. I also have an online buddy from Puerto Rico, she lives in Chicago and says she is homesick she has no family close by, poor girl.

Last time I was to Mx was in May, we are going again in Mid September for few days. I have lots of family in Mx, the closet being my brother he is 28. And my inlaws which I am very close to.

Girl I am proud of you knitting and crocheting away. I'ma have to take some lessons, lol. I bet your dad is very proud of you too!

I like to read as a hobby, I just don't get much time in as I would like to. I like to read mystery novels and educational books. It is hard w/my twins right now. But I am enjoying them so much.

All I am doing for exercise now is walking on the treadmill, I will have to get me some work our dvd's to change the routine a little. My son and my father in law picked out a name for the pup, they called it Tobi. Don't know the reason behind the name, lol. Take care and have a good day.

Oh almost forgot, today's my son's first soccer practice for the season. I was talking to his coach last night and seems like this year they are getting new uniforms and will be playing in bigger fields. I was thinking on suggesting to the moms that we get jerseys like theirs to wear on games, you know to show support. I hope they go in on it. Some moms really don't like to participate.

I also think you are cool to talk to. I would not have imagined to find so much to talk about so soon. It is nice getting to know you Rakkoon, by the way my name is Miriam. Talk to you soon .

[Rakkoon]

Its nice to hear from you again and also to hear that everything is going well.
Well my mom and dad divorced when i was 3 y/o. Until I was 12 y/o I went through the usual drama everytime she would drop me off to see him for his visitation rights. She always managed to start an argument with him. When i was 12 y/o she moved my sister and I to So. Cal. about 350 miles away from my dad, who lives in No. Cal. I think if my dad knew anything about the laws, he could have said that my mom kidnapped me. From that point on she made my life **** if I even wanted t get in touch with him, since I was living under her roof. When I moved out on my own at the age of 24 y/o. My first mission was to contact my dad. My mom's first words when she found out was "Great, now he is going to think I was trying to keep you away from him" I sat there thinking she was the one stopping me from doing anything. Whats funny is that his wife would tell him not to worry that one day I would move out then I would look for him. They always had their number listed so that way I could find him.
Its not easy, I know he loves me alot. Its hard to get close to him b/c practicely all my life I lived without a father figure. Not until 2 months ago I managed to get up the courage to say "Papa" to him. I feel bad for him b/c he wasn't able to see me grow up. When we went to see his mother grave in Tijuanna, (like now) its weird to think she was my grandmother. We went to TJ and all of a sudden I have all this family I never knew I had. In many ways I feel robbed of the relationship I could have had with my dad.
As you, I don't have a good relationship with my mom. She has always said that I am nothing like her. My sister has always been the apple of her eye. Its funny the only time her and I get along is when my sister and her are arguing. I live about 20 minutes away from her now. I only see her once a week sometimes I wait 2 weeks to go there. But yet when the time comes I will take her in and care for her when she is no longer able to care for herself. I don't ever want to place her in a home unless it just gets too bad then I will maybe consider it.
Wow! You are doing 2 1/2 miles now, thats great. I've dropped mine down to 2 miles now just b/c the walking seems to warm me up for my Tae Bo. When i checked how many calories i was burning, it wasn't that much of a difference to drop a mile. The Tae Bo really works me out.
I in no way can make tortillas now. I had to stop because they only last one day. My husband asked me not to make ny more till we lose this weight. I also stopped buying them b/c they are so tempting.
My husband and I do speak spanish, his is alot better then mine though. He went to El Salvador when he was very small. He has yet to go visit his family in Puerto Rico. I was more rebelious about speaking spanish. I reasoned that if all I spoke in school was english, plus all my friends spoke english then why did I have to learn spanish? It wasn't until I was in my teens that I started putting more effort into it. We want our kids to know both languages. I have to stop speaking Spanglish, it might confuse my son.
I'm 5"4 1/2' I used to weight 120 in my thinner days. but I am happy I am finally able to wear some of my skinny clothes now. i just put on a pair of size 8 pants on sunday. I was so shocked that they actually fit me.
I can't believe how much we have in common. I was shocked when you said you were going to be 30 next month. Its just amazing. I know what you mean about not having enough time to read a book. My quiet time is usually late at night when everyone is asleep. But by that time I'm exhosted.
Do twins run in your family? I ask that b/c when I was going to have twins (when I was pregnant with my son), I asked my mom and dad, those said that there was no one on either side that had twins. Now I know that in my husbands family, his grandmother had twins which died shortly after birth. He also has a cousin that has twins.
what about you, do you and your husband speak spanish? Do you drive to Mx? How long is the trip? Do you get any tornadoes there?
How is your diet going? what have you been doing? And when are you going to get a "Ticker?" (the thing on the bottom)

[desperate_to_lose]

Hope you are doing well! WOW we do have a lot in common, I feel we have known each other for a while now. I am so glad I decided to post a message in this site, it is great to make friends w/people like you!

I am sorry to hear all that you went thru, it is tough growing up like that I have alot of sad memories of when I was child. I tell my husband all the time that I did not know what it meant to be happy until I married him. Honestly I feel that way. I have a great man by my side. God blessed me w/him. On the other hand, one day I will tell you some of my growing up experiences. For now let me tell you a few things that are going on.

First of all soccer practice went great yesterday. My son is very serious about it this year, last few seasons it was just fun to him. You should see him now. He even says he wants soccer to be his profession when he grows up. He is a very sweet child. Loving to us and his siblings. Which brings me to my next topic.

My son started a new school this year, we bought a house over the summer and the school district is to another school. Any ways, I did not fear he would have trouble adjusting. He is very sociable and very dedicated to school. He can be a little hard headed at times but on the average he is a great child. Well girl, we are having problems w/his new teacher, w/in less than 10 school days, she has sent him home with a warning 6 times. My son tells me the reasons he supposedly gets in trouble and the reasons are so minor. Kid's stuff you know. It is affecting his mood and attitude towards his new school and it is really worrying me. She is the type of teacher who wants soldiers out of these poor 8 yr olds. I have already talked to her once, you know in a nice way. When I was there I saw that alot of students had warnings. My son said she does not have patience, I beleive him. We, my husband and I, have decided we are going to talk to the principal and hope she can be a little more reasonable. I am going to see the school principal Friday morning I'll let you know how that goes.

How cool that you guys speak spanish we do too, it is our first language, it is still my husband's primary language. What does your husband do? My hub is a truck driver, but he comes home every night thank God.

I am shorter than you I am 5'2, lol. The very least I have weighed is 120, I loved it. And this is my heaviest, the last time I weighed it was 190. No telling now. I have not really had time to get a ticker, you will have to help me on that one.

My mother in law is a twin, and a great aunt had 3 sets of twins back in the days.

I watch a little T.V. at night when everyone is asleep, it feels good to have a little time to myself, lol.

We drive to Mx, our birth town is right on the border, it only takes us 4 hrs to get there. IT'S GREAT!

The weather here can be tornadic, but I don't have memories at all of one hitting us or even being spotted. There are other places in Tx that do get tornados alot. But girl forget TX, Nebraska!! The town we lived in was demolished by 7 tornados back in the 70's. How sad and scary, huh?

My diet is going good, I really just stopped eating flour anything and sweets and I am watching my portions. I feel like I have progressed. How 'bout you?

Well I let you go for now, getting late talk soon! Good night and take care!

[Rakkoon]

Hey girl,
Its good to hear that everything is going well. My diet hasn't changed that much. I did slip up last weekend. We went out to eat 2 times, I was so hungry I didn't care how much I ate. But I got back on track on Monday. I have sort of gotten lazy with my exercising I need that kick in the pants to get me going again. It seemed as though once I found out I could fit into most of my skinny clothes I sort of stopped. but I need to keep going to get to my goal weight.
I know what you mean about having a bad teacher. My daughter had a couple. But that was when she was in elementary school. With one incident, Believe me I became close with the principal there. It seemed like I was always calling her. The teacher had complains from the other parents too. As it turned out she was having problems with her boyfriend and was taking it out on my daughter and a couple of other kids. I ended up moving my daughter to another school (out of the district), the following year she (the teacher) was let go. My advice would be, let your voice be heard to the principal.
Its cool to hear that your son likes school and is doing so well. Sounds like you raised a great sweet boy. Just keep doing what you are doing.
My husband is a computer guy. Its government work. His title is desktop specialist. I get tongue-tied everytime someone asks me. To me, he loves computers.
Sounds like you are doing really well. I will talk to you soon. My son just hit his head on the table, got to go. Talk to you soon
Rachel

[desperate_to_lose]

Oh no poor baby ,hope your baby is ok ! Thanks for hearing me out ! I hope I did not bore you . Sounds like your husband has a great job, I am happy for you ! Thanks for the advise on the teacher thing. I will wrap up now , I have to go to bed sometime, lol .Talk to you tomorrow . Good night . It is midnite here now, I was working on some end of the month stuff. Good night again!

[Rakkoon]

Hi how are you? Sorry I've been really busy.
This weekend I've been focusing on re-arranging my furniture. I threw away my coffee table b/c my son for some reason kept hitting his head on it. Two days ago he hit his head three times. 2 of those times was when he was trying to chase the dog under the table and (i guess) he forgot to duck. My mom suggested just put it in the garage. I hate throwing things in the garage, it just makes it look messy. Plus I didn't really like it in the first place. It was huge. I think it was the size of a dining table, with short legs, lol. For some reason when I saw it in the store it didn't look so big but when it was delivered, I was in shock of how much room it took up. My husband put it out in the front for someone to take, it was gone in 5 minutes I hope they know they won't have so much room in their living room, LOL.
Another thing I'm doing is moving whatever my son can reach, out of the way or up higher. I have a bakers rack, where I had the Microwave. I moved the microwave to my kitchen counter, to make more room for anything else in the bakers rack.
The scariest thing is when he wil be able to get on top of the sofas. The majority of the time my husband and I sit on the floor. So as not to get my son tempted to climb on the sofas. Plus he has easy access to sit on my lap. And I'm on his level.

This morning I went for my walk. I figured with all the moving around I would be doing this could be my exercise for the day
How are you doing? What are or were your plans for this long weekend? By the way how are the gas prices there? Its already over $3.00 here.
I've been watching the news about whats going on in New Orleans. Its so aweful. I just hope that the reason FEMA didn't get out there in time wasn't due to racial reasons, thats just not not right.
Oh no my son just got up. How everything is fine
Rachel

[desperate_to_lose]

I have been real busy myself. I am glad you've rearranged your furniture, all the hard work sure is rewarding!! That is good that you are child proofing your house, there are a lot of little dangers for a child his age.

We are doing good, over the weekend I just got togeather w/some family and we cooked out. It was relaxing. My mother went to Mexico for the long weekend. What did you guys do? Does you sister live in the same city you do? Does your husband have relatives close by. We usually hang out w/my cousin and her husband and kids. Not all the time, just now and then will get togeather and cook a meal. Since I have alot of space outside we play soccer adults and children, it is fun. Also my father's daughter spent the day w/us on Monday. It is sad I am closer to her, than I am w/my sisters(the ones I grew up with). My sisters have different lifestyles than we do .

Our gas here is about $2.89 if your lucky most places have it at $2.99. Crazy huh? Yes it is very sad, the Katrina hurricane catastrophe. I can't believe there are still so many people on roofs of their homes. Did you see that Mexico has sent massive (tons) humanitay aid and soldiers to help rescue any survivors. Then Venezuela's president is doing alot too, but he did not lose any time to criticize Bush, the good thing is he is doing alot as well. Then France and so many other countries are responding to these victims needs. It is going to be so difficult to for these people to start a new life again. My heart goes out to them. And like you I am stunned at how long it took the aid to get there, I find myself wondering too. It makes me mad.

I am still walking 2 1/2 to 3 miles, I feel alot more energetic and I don't know yet If I have lost any more. How about you have you weighed?

Well I will let you go, got to get back to work and house cleaning. Talk to you later, hope you have a good day!

[Rakkoon]

Well Hello there!
I think its great that you to spend time with your family. Its always cool to be able to hang out with those family members we haven't seen in a while. I know what you mean about being closer to others then the ones that are technically closer to you. My sister and I are like night and day, she is into the gathic dark lifestyle, I am a conservative christian. She says she doesn't believe in God, that happened since she lost her last boyfriend due to religious differences.
You know whats funny is that here in Cali. I haven't heard a word about the countries you mentioned, helping us with the Katrina victims. I was starting to get upset b/c I thought "Wait a minute we help other countries but where are they when we need help?" Well its good to know we are getting help.
What I feel bad about is that some of those people were brought here to Calif. Now what are they going to do when they need to get back on their feet and they notice that the cost of living here is so high? To rent a 2 bedroom apartment is about $1,200 a month. Then I wonder who is going to pay for their ticket to go back to where they would like to go? I would be mad if I was them. I don't know if I heard this wrong but I heard the mayor of Los Angeles say that they are only going to help these people (who they plan to bring to Ca.) for 9 days. Thats not enough time.

Sounds like you are walking more then I was. I sort of stopped. Ok, before you start yelling at me I got lazy and took a week off. Then (around) Wednesday I thought my son was getting sick (he got diarrhea) but it only lasted until noon that same day. Then Saturday around 2:30am he woke up wanting to play Monday at the same time 2:30am he woke up again with a fever of 101.1 I gave him Motrin. He's been betting it off and on (once or twice an hour) since then. I called the Dr. office they said if it continues for 72 hrs then call and they will get him in. The reason why I'm not freaking out is b/c in between fevers he is doing his usual remodeling of our livingroom I think he's teething.
Since I last worked out I have been very achy I know I have to get back out there. I hate the way I feel. But I don't want to take my son out off the house in the morning. I can't workout in the evening b/c my husband just started going to school. The good thing is I haven't gained any weight

I don't know if you got my message but I will let you know now. Due to financial problems we are going to cut off out DSL. I left my e-mail address in the message, look up at the top right hand corner it will tell you that you have messages or not. My husband is thinking it will only be until Dec or Jan. I think I still have a couple of days until they turn it off. But my husband will check my e-mail.
Talk to you soon.
Rachel

[desperate_to_lose]

Rakkoon, I am just now able to log in I have been so busy. I am sad to hear you won't have internet for a while, I am going to miss talking to you . But you have to do what is best for your family. I am so grateful to have talked to you these past few weeks and hope we can regain communication again in the future. Congratulations on all the weight you have lost !

I hope your son is doing better now, poor baby. Did you end up taking him to the dr?

Have you picked up on walking again ? I hope so you have done so well, but then again everyone needs a little break, don't want you to get burned out !

Have you talked to your dad lately? I hope your relationship w/him strengthens more and more over time. I never asked you if he gave you any brothers and sisters? If so I also hope you get close to them as well.

It is starting to get a bit colder in the mornings here now, we have not even reached 70 so far and it is almost 9 a.m. How is your weather?

Well I am doing the same amount of exercise, I feel great except when I miss a workout for a couple of days. It is like now my body is asking for it.

What do guys usually do on weekends? My husband is off all of next week starting Sunday, we are going to Mx next weekend. I have some shopping to get accomplished in MX, I can't wait.

Well I have asked you so many things and you might not be able to answer depending on if you still have the DSL. I wish you the best and hope to read you again soon.

Take care and God Bless.

[Rakkoon]

His fever broke 2 days ago, thank God. Now it seems like the pain probably bothers him mainly at night. He will wake up kind of fussing in his sleep. I sure hope those teeth come in soon (at this point he has 6 front teeth). If only he knew he had some more coming in
I did start up my walking again. Like you said it feels like my body started crying out for it too. I'm back on track now. Now that my daughter is in school (started yesturday), I was thinking about ways to get my workout in and also save gas. My daughter goes to a school about 20 minutes away, since I have to drive her to school I end up making 2 round trips. I end up using alot of gas. So what I am planning to do is, in the morning when I drop off my daughter I am going to leave my car there then walk to my mom's house which is 2 miles away. Then when have to pick her up from school I will walk back to her school and pick up my car and daughter. I was telling my mom that I will probably do my Tae Bo there Luckly she works so my son and I will be the only ones there.
I haven't talked to him since last month. From what told me the last time we talked was that he would be very busy with work. There are days where he will work from 6:30am-8:00pm around this time of year.
After my parents divorced he married a woman with 2 daughter. The oldest is 20 days younger then I am. The other is 2 years younger then us. Whats funny is that even though we are not related by blood, I and the one that it 20 days younger look like twins. When I show people pictures of my blood sister people are like "Are you sure thats your sister?" but when I will show a picture of my step-sister people will point her out and say "Thats your sister right?" My step-mom says that people react the same way with her, whenshe shows our picture together. Her and I joke about it and say that we probably are twins but she didn't know it when she was pregnant and I was snuck out of the operating room when I was born
My dad and her did have a son together. He is the same age as my blood sister. And like my sister, I can't get along with him. He resents me b/c of my relationship with my dad. I feel bad for him b/c when we go up north I find out from different people that my dad tells everyone "My daughter from southern Cali is coming to see me!" From what I understand, when my brother was little my dad feared getting close to him b/c he thought if he did what if they got divorced and she would take him away too. He admits it wasn't right that he did that but he is trying to repair their relationship now. I tryed to get close to him but all he does is give me attitude. The way I see it is I don't have time for this, I will wait till he grows up.
How about you have you heard from your dad? How many brothers or sister do you have?
The weather here has cooled down a bit, around 80's. Wow, it sounds like the temp. sure dropped fast. is it always like that?
Just to let you know we might go to Tx on the 20th of this month. I say might b/c my husband was called out there for business and he is going to find out how much it wiil be to take us along too. If so we will be there for 1 week. The company is in Allen Tx. I'm sort of excited b/c this will be my first time on a plane.
Its great you haven't dropped the ball like some of us have (me). Its so good to hear you are still exercising. I'm very happy for you. How is everything going with your son's soccer team? Are they open to new ideas?
Due to money issues lately we don't do much. What normally was our weekend routine or favorite past time since we were dating is to go to the bookstore, buy coffee and read some books. occationally we will buy a book. Sounds boring, huh? Then I sometimes go to my mom's house on Sunday's.
I loved the shopping in Mx. when we went. I bought a whole outfit for around $70.00 complete with shoes. How often do you travel there?
I have really enjoyed the oppertunity to get to know you. I hope you will be successful with your weight loss. I hope when we get DSL back the next time I talk to you I will be able to see a cool before and after of all the weight you lost. We need to buy a digital camera ourselves. If you were to see my before pic, you would be I can't believe I ever weighed that much.
I hope to bump into you again soon. If not I will keep you in my prayers. God Bless.
Rachel