3 Fat Chicks on a Diet Weight Loss Community - Coming back worse than before

Hello Everyone ! Im Akire a single mom of 3 boys 16,11,9 . They are my everything and also they are my worries ... I guess is a mom thing to do ... I was here back in 2010 !!! now 2019 My story is so different , I gained so much weight that my feet, joints are suffering , pretty sure because the my weight gain .. I will not sugarcoated , I stopped taking care of myself , let depression and worries take over and that was my doom....... Until today i saw the scale and decided to weigh in myself .. at whooping 244 lbs! this is the heaviest I have been in my life . I feel so embarrassed and ashamed at myself , I let myself go .. but not anymore , I need to be alive , I need to be healthy ... My boys need me and yes I need myself as well..
I would love to have friends here ! a supportive group it will be beautiful ! I wish all newbies like me the best and lets send our good vibes to the universe so we can handle what is to come !