Hi Everyone
 

When others are home, I eat with them. Somewhat healthy, but always in moderation. I find myself wanting to run errands, so that I can sneak out for a burger/cookies/candy/etc. On the evenings they have priorities, I find myself thinking all day about what I will binge on that evening. And OH! The strategies of hiding boxes and wrappers. It's like I am a child! But no. I am 49 yrs old!
It doesn't seem to matter how much I tell myself that I NEED to stop this behavior. Even the realization that it could be the death of me doesn't seem to be enough. I am controlled diabetic-4 yrs. I take cholesterol meds. Heart disease runs both sides of family. I've been a yo-yo dieter since my teen years. All time high weight was 320 in 9/12. Dropped down to 215 by 01/14, but have climbed back to 268 and can't seem to follow a plan for more than 3-6 wks.

Not looking for magic. Not looking for sympathy. Not sure what I think I might find here, but I need help.

Hi, I'm new here too! I'm also hoping to get help and support on this forum. I can totally identify with binging and yo-yo dieting. I'm good at starting diets, then I lose motivation and quit. Hopefully we can both find motivation on this forum.

Thanks for your response, Lola!
I was about to give up here.
Since posting here, I have been listening to the Brain Over Binge book/audiobook/podcast by Kathryn Hansen. I am finding a lot of truth in her words as they apply to my situation. If you have a smartphone and download Podbean, you can find Brain Over Binge there. Roughly 20 minute episodes fit right into my daily commute time. Hoping you can find some peace of mind there too.