Hellloo, everyone. So I've been wanting to lose weight for the longest. Sadly my story is like most. I google some fad diet, try it for a few days, then the cravings get the best of me. I get disappointed in myself, especially when my friends and family question my dieting. So now, the new year is coming up and some major changes is going on in my life.

New year, new me? This isn't my 2017 New Years resolution. I find it pointless, and I want to make an actual change. So this is a lifestyle change I'm hoping for, not just some crash course to lose ten pounds in a week. Nope, not me. Anyways, I'm only twenty three and I weigh about 190. Its been a while since I weighed myself, but thats my general weight...give or take a few pounds. I'm definitely not happy, and its causing emotional issues. All my friends are smaller than me, so I immediately feel uncomfortable. We are young, we try to live life and have fun. So we go out, and most of the time I'm just not comfortable in my own clothes. I'm pretty, I never question that...but my figure. Ugh.

When they talk about needing to lose weight, in my head I'm just like yeah right...I would kill for your flat stomach, or little pudge. Really, I never wanted to have a flat stomach. I will be HAPPY with a little pudge, and a nice butt. Anyways, they complain and never do I talk about my insecurities about my own weight. If you're unhappy with your weight, change it... thats what they say when other people complain. Then one friend will comment, "lightheartedly" about someones weight, and try to make it a joke... Its uncomfortable, and I just ignore it all together. So this issue has pushed me away from my friends. I've started going out less, and in return been invited to less functions. Does my feelings get hurt, yes?

Not only am I have issues with my friends, but my love life. I'm 23. I want a healthy love life. I'm so insecure about my body, I usually feel like I'm not good enough. I don't get guys because of my body (in reality it could be because I'm pretty shy). When I do find guys, I'm cautious. Sex? UGHHHHHH, a drag. Not because its just horrible, but because omg, he's taking my shirt off...the light still on, he'll see my rolls, its just horrible. So when you are uncomfortable with your body, you definitely perform horribly. Thats just me at least. So this is taking a huge role on my life.

I'm about to graduate college, and I really want to look nice for my graduation photos, as well as for graduation. I want to be confident, and I want to not give a beep about what anyone else is thinking of me. Not only do I want to look good for graduation, but I want to feel good about eating healthy DAILY. I want to feel good about going to the gym a few times a week.

So eating healthy and going to the gym is my main goals. I am committing to a cutting meat from my diet completely. Tough, I know, but I can definitely go days without meat already. Just finding something else to eat other than vegetables will be my challenge. To help out I am planning to meal prep for the week, or at least half of the week. Don't want certain foods getting soggy. I am also committing to going to the gym 4 to 5 times a week. At least one rest day, with light strength building home exercises on the 5 or 6 day. How much do I want to lose? 30 to 40 pounds. Graduation is not till May, my pictures a month or two before...maybe a month (procrastinator at its finest). I don't want or need to lose all that weight before then, but to see a difference in my face (I have a double chin, and I swear I hate it sooooo bad), and in my clothes. All I really ask for.

Promise, I'm almost done.

One of my main problems and I lose motivation. So, maybe reading this...reading other peoples "testimony's", or comments under my forum will keep me going. I've always wanted someone to go through this with me, and now, I feel like I have a whole community. I'm definitely looking forward to this.

My first day of dieting and exercise will be Monday, Jan 2. Wish me luck!! Sorry for any typos/grammer issues, I didn't proof read

I totally can relate to you I am 28 years old and weigh 190. I have gone as far as losing 70 pounds before and gained it all back I'm so disappointed in myself but I know I can get there and so can you. I started in December and I'm down 10 pounds watch out January here we come LOL

I am also relating completely to this post. I'm currently 188 and hating it. I've been down as low as 167 so to come back up to that number is really depressing. I slacked off for the past week and put like 6 lbs back on. It SUCKS! But I need to get back on the horse.

You can do it!

Im starting my journey tomorrow and will be posting every week. good luck

I'm so happy that people are actually relating, and that I'm not alone. Definitely going to need the support through this journey. I probably should consider a blog, so I can ramble during difficulties. Anyways, I know we can all do it... and Bslope, 10 pounds in a month is great. Rustylush.. I know its so disappointing when you lose weight and then gain it back. One of my biggest concerns about the process, but I know you can do it. We can do it.

Chou please keep us updated. I convinced myself to start after the holidays, because it'll be my last time drinking until Feb. Only then because my great friend is having a birthday party, and I would like to celebrate with her. Anyways, good luck...and I definitely want weekly progress reports. I will be sure to do the same.

Hello all,

I am starting my diet tomorrow and is very excited to lose this weight. I am actually doing the QLWC program. I hope it works. It is pricey but I have seen great reviews about this diet. Since I spent this money I have no desire to cheat. I cannot see myself wasting $700. I have made an investment in myself. Wish me luck. I start my 3 day detox tomorrow and my actual diet on Tuesday. I will post again on Tuesday and let you know how my 3 day detox went. Wish me luck.

Good luck!!

Good luck! I know that you can do it.

Today is my first day of my diet and workout. So I woke up at 7, had to force myself to get up. I went to the gym and LORD! I did a warm up on the treadmill for 5 minutes, and then I started with my first set. With all the research I've done, its best to build muscle with weights instead of doing just cardio. So, anyways, I did goblets and in and outs (which was torture). 8 sets, 4 sets each, for 45 secs. I did not make it 45 each set, but I definitely forced myself to keep going. Then after I finished the full 8 sets, I got on the treadmill and did interval training. I was supposed to run, but after those goblets and in and outs, I just couldn't. Those exercises are basically squats, but full body exercising. So the first minute I did 0% incline, I can't remember the speed. I just know I didn't go over 3.5 in speed today. After the first minute I increased my incline to 3, then the 3rd minute increased the incline to 6, and the 4th minute increased my incline to 9. Cool down for 30 seconds on the treadmill, and another 30 seconds getting ready for another set. The second set consisted of bent over row to dead lift. I don't remember the weight I did, but had to be like 15/20...lighter weight than I used for goblets. I have no upper body strength, so I knew not to strain my muscles too bad. This set also consisted of push ups and twist...sadly my apartment gym has this weird flooring and its painful to lay on the ground, or even press my weight onto it. So I did a few push ups and twist when I got hope. The bent over row was easier to do, but still exhausted. Then after I finished the set, I went back on the treadmill to power walk. Again, supposed to run, but I just couldn't. I'm hoping the more in shape I get, I can do the running. Anyways, this consist of 4 minutes, but the first minute is your fastest speed, then slow down for the 2nd minute, then back up to your fastest speed for the 3rd minute, and slow back down for the last minute...then I repeated the 30 second cool down. The next sets consisted of bicep curl to shoulder press & bench dips. Bench dips was death, but I improved with time. After I finished the set, I went back to the treadmill for the incline running/walking. The the last sets consisted half v tucks and spiderman planks. I managed to do the half v tucks, but it was definitely torture, and I couldn't bare my arms on the floor for the spider-man planks. After this set, I did the up and down speed walking one last time, and that was the end. I did a cool down on the treadmill, and finally was able to go home.

I was definitely tired, and my legs....gosh. I plan on doing a different workout tomorrow, because I want to switch up...so I will do this workout again, on Wednesday. I came home, drunk a cup of apple cider vinegar, showered, had breakfast. I had oats and cut up bananas. For lunch I had already prepped wheat rice, organic corn, organic black beans, organic chickpea beans, some cilantro, grilled onions, grilled green peppers, and two tablespoons of organic salsa. I forgot how much I hate warmed up rice, so I might have to rethink that through. For dinner I am having pasta, with protein noodles (I can't remember the brand). Whenever I looked up chickpea noodles, that brand popped up, so I'm going with it. I'll probably do a cup of noodles, and a little less than half a cup for the sauce. I might to half a cup of corn, because I'm actually pretty hungry. I'm trying to debate if I should wake up in the morning to workout tomorrow or wait till I get off work. I was sooo tired and ended up taking an hour nap around 12. I hate to be that tired tomorrow when I actually have to go to work. Today is tough. Hungry, and thighs a little sore... Definitely ready for bedtime.