I have always been overweight, chubby, slightly chunky or "wow, you've gained some weight". No point in not being honest about it. My weight has fluctuated most of my life. I never really cared much, simply because I was happy with me, happy with my size, how I looked and in my relationships, it never posed an issue.
But something dawned on me yesterday; I rarely take pictures with my son, or anyone else for that matter. I never thought much about it, but the truth is, I don't like how I look in pictures. Not really. So, I avoid them.
Before I got "sick" with this stupid thyroid issue, I was going to the gym with a friend. I wanted more energy and it was an added bonus that I was losing a ton of weight. The weight fell of FAST. However, as soon as I started taking this medication, I gained it all back. FAST.
I don't want to avoid pictures anymore. Simply because I want those memories with Kai. I don't care about what other people think of me, or how they see me, or whether or not I am "skinny" or attractive. I just want to be healthy and I want my son to grow up knowing that I will be around for as long as I am meant to be. I don't want my weight to be the reason I take my last breath.
So, it's time. I've never really dieted. Not really. I've done the "I'll start on Monday" diet, but Monday never seems to come. I have done the all or nothing diet, meaning I eat nothing, and then I am so HANGRY by dinner that I eat everything in the fridge. I want to find a plan that I can live by.
So...I am breaking up with bread, pasta, and processed carbs. It will be a hard breakup. I will be honest. I will probably miss this relationship most. But, I feel like it's time to dump the toxic in my life.
I am also saying goodbye to my beloved root beer. The bubbly goodness will not be a part of my life anymore. It is full of sugar and bad juju and I don't need it.
Finally, the hardest breakup of all. Coffee. I am the Lorelai Gilmore of Florida (if you don't know the reference, you should). I cannot wake up without my coffee. And I LOVE my coffee. But, I love it full of junk like sugar, sweeteners, mocha, hazelnut, salted caramel and more. Not good, so

I need accountability. And I plan to document this so that I am accountable to myself.

Wish me luck!

Well, it sounds like you're already off to a really good start!

I'm in the same boat mostly. I really didn't care about people thinking I was overweight because I never really had an issue with myself and then what kicked me into my diet. The thought of being in both of my sisters weddings, having to wear a dress, and the thought of those horrid wedding photos that will be framed and hung in my parents home and my sisters' homes. I started dieting at the beginning of last month and have lost 12 pounds. It's a really good feeling. My goal for my sister's wedding in October is to lose 50 pounds, well I only have 38 more to go!

We can all do this, it's just a matter of getting ourselves into the right mindset. Also, my blood pressure has become more of a problem and when my doctor started mentioning diabetes it was an eye opener for me.

I started taking birth control last year when I met my current boyfriend and that helped me gain about 20 pounds in just 2-3 short months. I didn't enjoy the extra weight gain because that almost put me at 300 and enough was enough. So here I am!

I really encourage a lot of people to join the Monthly Weight Goal challenges! I did the one for May and it was good. Just started June's!

Welcome to the site, I hope you can find good support here!

Welcome! Best of luck on your journey to become a healthier you!

Thanks so much ladies. I appreciate it. It is going to be a long, hard road but I know I can do it.

Glad you are here