I kept thinking the ice cream was helping me to lose weight :(
 

I love sweets. I am the master of justifying sneaking sweets when on a diet. Its been a long time since ive successfully dieted. When I was pregnant with my son two years ago I was as healthy as I have ever been. Mcdonalds wasnt good enough for my fetus, it was all about local, organic home cooked meals and incorporating the "V" word, (those who shalt not be named, rhymes with smegetables) into my diet on a daily basis. I guess that goes to show that I know how to do better but for some reason I just haven't. This is my first step in the process and me being the queen of quitting, im hoping that I will be able to stick to this. I don't know if I lost my motivation because I gained weight or if I gained weight because I lost my motivation. Its that circular chicken/egg argument... all I know is im too fat for this ish and aint no boday got time for dat. I need to do this for my son, not only so that I can be around for him but also so that I can set a good example for him. He's at the age where its alot harder to keep my candy stashes hidden :( I dont want him to think my addiction to food is healthy. I feel like im really going to give this my all this time but ive said that so many times... I just feel like ive lost faith in myself. Those words don't really carry any weight. I signed up for this awesome forum so hopefully that will be of some help. I hope to draw inspiration from others and find a more positive way to look at the situation. Hello everyone. Im Ny and im addicted to food... :hug: but only the food that tastes good, and some that don't.:dizzy::carrot:

LOL! Welcome, Ny. I feel your pain!

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If your son is getting to the age where its hard to hide the candy from him, it sounds like the right age to start teaching him how fun and awesome physical activity is. :)

Welcome to the forum!!! You're going to be great.

Thanks ladies! @tinneranne2 Don't get me wrong we are a very active family. We go to the park twice a week outside of daycare. We have a picnic day every weekend and we usually go to a National park or conservation area which always leads to hiking. Some times we have to hike in to the picnic area or campsite or other times its just a small trail. Im not afraid of exercise... im just a disorganized quitter. I have a hard time sticking to things, I am used to living in such an unstructured way. With the binge eating and my love for adult beverages I just seem to be piling on the pounds. I have cut back on the vino but the sweets are alot harder. We dont have a daily workout routine which is something I hope to build up to. If there are any other self professed quitters out there id love some pointers. On a happy note, I looked this site up last night when I was fighting cravings and I am happy to share that through talking it out... I have resisted my first set of late night cravings. Only a lifetime more to go but im taking it step by step.

Welcome Ny! I'm new myself. Love that youre disorganized...me too! Another thing I've come to realize over the years and am starting to see more written about lately is that a disorganized house can hold you back as well! Holding onto clutter can almost be viewed the same way we fight dieting! Sometimes I see what a baby I can be about all that...I work hard...it's my house (or my body)....I'll put the laundry away when I want to (or eat better! Lol). Anyways...welcome, I enjoy reading your wit!