Hi Everyone,
I have been looking at the forums here for a while and finally decided it is time i signed up. I am 120lbs over weight and desperate. Brief background, i have always been overweight for as long as i can remember (i am 24 now) and have always been up and down with my weight. I am now at the highest weight i have ever been and can see no way to lose weight, after trying and failing so many times. I need help! I have tried every diet, every slimming group, slimming pills and nothing sticks - i will eat healthily for a day or two and then go straight back to fast food and snacks. I have recently been given a new job role at work that requires me to dress much more smartly - i brought a load of clothes off ebay that i thought would fit (they are the biggest size i have ever had to buy) and they still don't fit!!! i cant face going into a shop to buy clothes anymore.
I have an exercise bike and countless exercise dvds that i do for a day or 2 then never go back to. i am in an endless cycle of losing a lb or 2 and then putting on 3 or 4lbs and i am at the point where i hate to look at myself. I hate my body and hate myself for becoming this.
Sorry for the rant i just had to get it out there
I can't do this anymore and i just need some advice or something, i dont know what really. Part of my problem i know is impatience, i just cant keep the motivation up for long enough and i know losing this amount of weight will take too long (in my mind). i think of all the times i have started to lose weight and how if i had kept it up by now i would be thin and happy - which makes me more depressed!
Again, sorry for the rant i really dont have any one to talk to about this and i guess i am reaching out to people who know what its like. any help or advice would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you x